Fine Dining Daydreams

The fear reaction
Your heart may double in speed, racing
Um, you may be sweating a lot, skin going white
Uh, your mouth may go dry
hair standing on end, your eyes blurry
Many many physical features
So what's that?
You know why?

It's a lonely road
The people that actually know me know
I'm misunderstood
Got me saying honestly nevermind like OVO
I wanna live a life that I'm gonna be proud of
That's my only goal
Work in silence, disappear like a holy ghost
Good things take time so I'll slowly grow yeah

Or grow slowly
I'm at uni and writing to vocal ranges and melodies
Nah you don't know me
Don't need to be famous with hella Ps
Music is mainly a therapy
Lately people ain't getting me
Not friends not enemies
They're just strangers and memories you see?

It's a kind of numbness
Postponing the pain
My body is present, my mind in the dungeons
I've been cut so close to the vein

Maybe I'm into fear
'Cause I don't interfere and it just manifests
Doing circles my figure hates me
How do I panic less?

I'm a kid on the naughty list, surely missed, my presence is vanishing
Some days I feel tears on my cheeks and people can't hear when I speak
I don't think I'm managing, nah
Not the best day no comfort
Bad chest pains they come first
Ah shit, I'm gonna start panicking

And now with my face shaking
Put my head in my arms like my brain's breaking
There ain't no pretending, I know the ending
I've been in these same places
Broke down at the train station
I can't feel my legs
You see the stress?
Is this my story? Should I read the rest, huh?

It's a lonely road
The people that actually know me know
I'm misunderstood
Got me saying honestly nevermind like OVO
I wanna live a life that I'm gonna be proud of
That's my only goal
Work in silence, disappear like a holy ghost
Good things take time so I'll slowly grow

You don't think I struggle?
Isn't it great how I need to be fake now?
I just wanna lay down
Give a fucking a breakdown of my fucking breakdown
Stone cold, appearing to be zero degrees
I got a big circle and a small one
They're all heroes to me yeah

It's a lonely night
The people that actually know me right
I can't trust my senses
Smell the flowers but no rosy life
Look down at my wallet, I see oyster on a card
I'm taking the tube, the boys are in the car
I wanna fine dine with oyster on a card
And after, join her at the bar



Credits
Writer(s): Finn Esse
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