To Keep You

I love you
And u hate me
Indifferent is a better word
If I don't give it any thought
I'm hopeful it'll stop the hurt
But my mind wins the race almost every time
I wake up every morning
Pray to god
That you're still mine
I tear myself to pieces
Pretending everything is fine
But ill keep putting on the act
To keep u

Cause you
Swore you knew the pain
You swore you knew the ache

Ive marched my troops to battle twelve dozen times
And even if I won the war you still weren't by my side
Oh im so much more than angry
Always failed to describe the pain Im in

But you never get it
And neither does he
Ill take silence as hearing
While he falls asleep
You know all that I wanted
Was sweet understanding
I always hated the violence
I need a soft landing
You set off my fight or flight when you talk like that
All the wanted was one good night is that too much to ask
You needed me you swore baby your lyings so bad
Im so tired of feeling like this

Cause u
Swore you knew the pain
Loving you is a losing game

Im never breaking even
Always on the decline
I coulda sworn that we were end game
You'd never waste my time
Oh im so much more than angry
Always fail to describe the pain im in

Have you always been like this
So selfish ans cruel
You take the best things in your life
And turn them against you

Cause I wake up every morning
Full of lust and full of life
Im still greatful that I knew you
But that I did not have the time
To give all my love to a ghost