disguise

Look in your eyes
The sparkles are fading
You see my disguise
I'm hoping I make it
Through all your replies
To the questions I'm asking
But you don't wanna hear them any more

Don't know what to say
I'm always going back to making the same mistake
Your words stay running through my head and keep me awake
I can't catch a break
But you always keep getting betrayed

I'm getting sicker and sicker so I should stop
Staying up all night and running around the clock
I could've chosen to ignore it all, but no
I promised I won't let you go

Look in my eyes
There's nothing to say, I keep on
Tearing with cries
Begging you to stay, I keep on
Rolling the dice
But you've turned into ice
I can't even save this with lies

Now I'm all on my own
I'm thinking of ending it
Want it to be known
Been hurting for quite a bit
Want it to be shown
Call who's on my phone
And tell them to collect all my bones

I'm getting sicker and sicker so I should stop
Staying up all night and running around the clock
I could've chosen to ignore it all, but no
I promised I won't let you go