Please Explain

Aunty Rana, I miss you
It's been 10 years ever since you
I hate them words, I don't wanna continue
I'm sorry that I haven't come to see you
Wish you were here cause since that day
Things got worse and nothing has changed
Mya and millie all grown up now
I see you upset when I look at their face
No one cares about what's going on
If you can hear me I hate this song
Some nights I can't even sleep cause
Your daughters are crying for help and your gone
I know how their feeling
I can't believe I'm still waiting for my father to come back
And I'm crying cause I shouldn't tell you
The girls don't live with their dad
And it's sad
Cause Amelia she doesn't even speak no more
It's not her fault she lost her mum
But whys she gotta lose one more
Everyone keeps asking me why is always angry for like
After all of these years
Nostop pain, non stop tears
She feels like there's nothing lose
Please try to put yourself in their shoes
I'm really trying to understand
What was the plan
When the only person that
Gave them the world is under this tomb
I don't know what to do
Your sister is sick the pain in her heart
From all of the shit my dad putting her through
I just wanna take my life away
I just wanna see my aunties face
If I had a choice to make to replace you
And put me in the grave I'm sick of this place
And the only reason why I'm still doing music
Is maybe one day my fathers watching me on TV
And he'll recognise my face

I got so much pain
Even though your back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
And I'll take the blame
But how can I trust you ever again
If you can't explain, please explain
I feel like I'm living in hell
That's why I'm always screaming for help
I don't want to hear you say that you love me
How can you love me
When I don't even love myself
Can someone please explain
Cause I'm just trying to find my way
I got so much pain
Even though your back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
And I'll take the blame
But how can I trust you ever again
If you can't explain, please explain

Dear Dad
I just turned 23
And I can't believe that your not here
Cause mum told me you were overseas
And that one day you'll be back
Why was she crying when she told me that
Sebz out in the streets
And I'm still asking where you're at
Now I'm wiping the tears
Off of my mums face
But I'm falling in the rain
I don't even know
Who I'm writing anymore
Cause I'm drowning in the pain
This is my my last letter
We could've been so close
But you pushed me away
And I don't want sit here
Writing an essay no more
Can you please explain
Cause I'm so tired of these introductions
I want know your side of the story
I'm not making assumptions
But why did you leave me
I'm old enough to have that discussion
I know I've made mistakes
But my life didn't come with instructions
So look at me now
I worked hard
Put my head down
Had to level up
Cause your a let down
Had to show up
Make my mum proud
Be a better man
Cause your not around
And I thank God
This who I am now
I remember when I saved 2k
Shot my first video
And look what Ive made now
But I still love you
Nah nah nah
Man I fkn hate you
After everything that you put us through
Was it worth it
Tell me was it fkn worth it
I'm hurt that we never spoke
Before I took that turn
But now it's too late
Fuck this letter
Just burn it

I got so much pain
Even though your back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
And I'll take the blame
But how can I trust you ever again
If you can't explain, please explain

Sebz, yeah
I know I'm not here anymore
But you got to keep your head up
I can't do it on my own lil bro
It was me and you from the start
But now that your gone
I swear on your grave
I'ma always carry on the brothers name
Ignite that flame
And burn them gronks that always got something negative to say
Cause they don't want to see us up
They just want to see us fall
They hate it every time we win
Thats why its always fuck em all
I don't want to do this on my own izzy I don't
I hate that I can't even pick up the phone
And mum just sits at the front of the house
Its like she's waiting for you to come home
Why are you making her wait
I know that I made a mistake
You weren't just my brother
You were my best friend
And now it's too late
Just please bro tell mum to go inside
Cause I'm not coming home tonight
I can feel her pain when she cry's
Wipe all her tears off her eyes
And I'll never forget the letter dad wrote us
First word I read was son
If your reading this I'm so sorry boys
But I had to do what I've done
I pray one day that god
Will bring us back together
Me you your brothers and your mum
But just for now son I got to leave
Cause I really don't like the man I've become
Wait Izzy I have to tell you something
I know dad hurt you when he left
But guess what he came back
And he wants to explain that's what he said
Look Sebz don't be upset
I have no regrets
You will always be my brethren
And if they ask what happened to Izzy
I'll tell 'em he died a fkn legend

I got so much pain
Even though your back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
And I'll take the blame
But how can I trust you ever again
If you can't explain, please explain
I feel like I'm living in hell
That's why I'm always screaming for help
I don't want to hear you say that you love me
How can you love me
When I don't even love myself
Can someone please explain
Cause I'm just trying to find my way
I got so much pain
Even though your back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
And I'll take the blame
But how can I trust you ever again
If you can't explain, please explain