Deferred

Since 10 ain't remembered what I dream about (nope)
Guess I'm too busy living tryna scheme 'em out (uh-huh)
I scare myself with what I don't think about
Things that bring most people to tears
I don't blink about (damn)
I'm not sure what stress it more
That you get no time in my mind or I get less in yours (fuck)
So I write you letters, leave 'em in my dresser drawer
We would never be together
What would I confess it for, huh?
I won't never ever let a word slip
Wanted to say I loved you the moment was never perfect (stubborn ass)
Wasn't for the hard way a nigga'd never learn shit
Can't get to what I reach for 'cause of detours
'Round a burnt bridge, yeah (stubborn ass)
And I know how to tie this turnicate
Because I'd rather bleed to death than have someone concerned wit' it
The only form of therapy was roll the blunt, burn the tip
Only way I knew to slow my world while discernin' if
It revolved around the right things like Copernicus
(the fuck am I doing?) uh
I admit it's a lonely life
A nigga prepared to live it
Cuz changers never die
Even if wife and kid-less

The number on the rise
Of texts left unreplied
Too occupied to lie
I probably won't call you back
Messages unread (uh)
Vestiges unsaid (uh)
Messed up in the head, yeah
Apologies for all of that, yeah
Apologies for all of that
All of that?
My apologies for all of that
Perpetually perturbed
Prefer not be disturbed
Would rather be a bird
Than leave a dream deferred, yeah

Number on the rise
Of texts left unreplied
Too occupied to lie
I probably won't call you back
Messages unread (uh)
Vestiges unsaid (uh)
Messed up in the head, yeah
Apologies for all of that, yeah
Apologies for all of that
All of that?
My apologies for all of that
Perpetually perturbed
Prefer not be disturbed
Would rather be a bird
Than leave a dream deferred, yeah

Steady making exes
Tryna multiply my O's (oh)
This isn't tic tac toe (oh)
I'ma need six in a row (oh)
Won't sacrifice my soul (oh)
'Cause them O's won't make me whole (oh)
Sustenance a must in this
Need more than Cheerios

Stay catchin' flights despite this fear of heights (uh-huh)
High as kites a slight respite on overnights, yeah (soarin')
Still won't miss my water, bruh
Ain't no skirtin' drink services
Stay awake like I concussed (protocol)
Shouts Mick
They water hitting us is killing us like Auschwitz (ssssss)
Why you think this venom dripping out my mouth bitch? (why?)
Trying desperately to dead the shit they tout man
So I kill beats like basic women's houseplants
Not for my health, myself, or no wealth
Check my bank account (uhh)
Writin' these checks like ass
If it's fat I make 'em bounce (insufficient funds ass nigga)
Ha ha, goddamn, Chase can throw it back
I get this Ph.D. I'll just be Dr. Overdraft
Still prioritize wise, yeah you know the math
Tryna make enough for comfort with my soul intact
Am I winning or losing though?
Principled or delusional?
Endless analysis lead to paralysis
Keep it moving yo (deuces)

The number on the rise
Of texts left unreplied
Too occupied to lie
I probably won't call you back
Messages unread (uh)
Vestiges unsaid (uh)
Messed up in the head, yeah
Apologies for all of that, yeah
Apologies for all of that
All of that?
My apologies for all of that
Perpetually perturbed
Prefer not be disturbed
Would rather be a bird
Than leave a dream deferred, yeah

Number on the rise
Of texts left unreplied
Too occupied to lie
I probably won't call you back
Messages unread (uh)
Vestiges unsaid (uh)
Messed up in the head, yeah
Apologies for all of that, yeah
Apologies for all of that
All of that?
My apologies for all of that
Perpetually perturbed
Prefer not be disturbed
Would rather be a bird
Than leave a dream deferred, yeah