To the Grave

I'm very proud of where you at, at the moment. And even more so where you are heading
I pray I will live to see, continue to see how much you progress
I'm not-I'm not putting no limitation on you
The skies the limit, Lobé
Sometimes I used to think
You don't believe that
Right
It's not about just seeing the figures
I believe it because I feel it
Yeah, This love I got for you can't put Into words
But don't worry imma find a way
I know i hurt your feelings when you call and I don't pick up and you probably think I can't give you the time of day
I got issues I should deal with
But if I'm honest, I get anxious and i hideaway
Life's shorts and it can be unpredictable
So before it's too late there's some things that I would like to say
I'm so conflicted
I say that I do all of this for you but then never come and see you and I know im being contradicting
Unless it's at hospital visit
I know I could do better and I gotta admit
I know this money been corrupting my spirit
I know you probably know me better than myself
And you could probably tell momma I been lost for a minute
Yeah, You know me well, mum
I Think I need protecting from myself, mum
I told the devil that my soul is not for sale, mum
I'm Heaven sent but imma give em hell, mum
Yeah, I do my thing and keep myself to myself, mum
I give them everything I can I try to help, mum
They say they love me
Why they wanna see me fail, mum
Why?
I noticed when I'm winning, there's jealousy in their eyes
all these So call friends only call me when they need something
But they never call me just to check if I'm alright
I was smoking everyday
And Hennessy in the night
on a dark path
Needed direction into the light
My Mother could tell you
She could tell you
It's a really blessing that I'm alive
I got love for Eleanor because she could left me hanging
I got love for Leo too, he was always understanding
Of the shit I'm going through
And I never got to thank him
I got love for ivy, still got love for all the mandem
I was with
can't forgive
Is what is it
I would probably do the same
If you did what I did
YeahI was just a kid
But I guess you gotta get it how you live
I been snaked by my niggas
And I been snake too
She give me the cake
Imma eat the cake too
There's Whole lot love inside my heart nigga
But if you push me you will see that there's a lot of hate too
I got secrets that I know I be should be telling
I ain't making no confession
Because I'm ashamed too
I felt a lot pleasure and a lot of pain too
Tryna find someone to give the blame too
Yeah, I sacrifice, I did the work
I paid my dues
I know my purpose
I know what I came to do
Yeah, You feel the frequency
Yeah, I came and change the mood
Yeah, I Change the mood cah
When I talk I say the truth
Yeah, Protect the kids
Im just tryna save the youth
Started of little
Now I'm doing major moves
Dissing me for clout
Better watch your mouth
Keeping on talking about be me and you might just make the news
Lord forgive me im walking contradiction
The devil in my ears
Tryna give me propositions
The opposition
Offering me the top position
You gotta listen
The competition
Wanna see me me give it up
Give it up give it up
Even if I sell my my soul man still isn't enough
Too busy surviving I'm not living enough
Tell my momma im sorry I've not been visiting as much
Cah

I been making promises
But I just can't keep them
There's some things some things, some things I won't admit it
Secrets I'm keeping
Imma imma take them to the grave for real
They don't even really know my pain for real
Cut that bitch, she ungrateful, now she say I never did that shit for her
Little Bitch I know you ain't for real
Ain't for real
Bitch I know you ain't for real
Nah you ain't for real
I got love for my brothers they would kill me for me
And I'm the same for real
and I don't know who to trust these I don't really know what fake or real