Lullaby

I think I know what you did
But it makes me cry
So I'll just pretend that I don't know that you lied
And I have burned through a hundred thousand ties
Left on a shelf
I don't think I need your eyes
Now I'm searching for a lullaby
Something that will help me to sleep at night
I never wanted talking to feel like a test
But you only ever wanted me at my best

I'd written a sonnet
I wanted it for your ears
But you can no longer read it
All the ink has been smeared
I was tired of looking
So I gave up my pride
Now there's no longer any reason
To keep me by your side

Now I'm searching for a lullaby
Something that will help me to sleep at night
I never wanted talking to feel like a test
But you only ever wanted me at my best

And I so badly wanted you to fill that void
I guess that I had forgotten you were only a boy
We're young enough to do anything
But we're old enough to know better
Now I'm learning losing a limb has made me so much heavier

Now I'm searching for a lullaby
Something that will help me to sleep at night
I never wanted talking to feel like a test
But you only ever wanted me at my best

I guess I thought I was meant to be in love
But now that we're here I think I might throw up