This Can't Be Good For Me

Couldn't even learn how to like my voice
So I reached to deep inside and I felt white noise
But it's never enough, tough, tell myself
Astrid, got to learn to let it go
Let it go, got to learn to let it go
Almost fucking died a couple years ago
From a shot to the heart, self inflicted at that
Always give my damn best so I can never relax

My whole world feels so different now
I'm so sorry that I let you down, but
It was out of my hands
It was never my choice
All those fucking words weren't even my voice
I still wonder if you think about me
Every single time I post, I still think about it
Wonder if you heard my songs and what you'd think about it
If you knew how many were about you
I'm still overcame with all the doubt you
Lit inside my soul when I had you
Pick up all the pieces, fuck I had to
You don't wanna see me in a bad mood
You don't deserve my attention
Nor my time or my affection
The public wants to rip me to shreds
So I never give them ammunition
So they can't fuck me over

Couldn't even learn how to like my voice
So I reached to deep inside and I felt white noise
But it's never enough, tough, tell myself
Astrid, got to learn to let it go
Let it go, got to learn to let it go
Almost fucking died a couple years ago
From a shot to the heart, self inflicted at that
Always give my damn best so I can never relax

I mean what the fuck was that
Every other night's another panic attack
Fear I won't live up to my potential
Even a day off could be so detrimental
And that's real as fuck, they never cared to ask
So now they hold out their hands like I got money or something
And then little by little creates another fucking character
That I got to learn how to fit into

Couldn't even learn how to like my voice
So I reached to deep inside and I felt white noise
But it's never enough, tough, tell myself
Astrid, got to learn to let it go
Let it go, got to learn to let it go
Almost fucking died a couple years ago
From a shot to the heart, self inflicted at that
Always give my damn best so I can never relax



Credits
Writer(s): Astrid Smith
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