Intrusive Thoughts

I'm historically heartbroken
Drownin' in my own emotions
One minute away from breakin' down, down, down
I'm always leavin' empty-handed
No one wants a heart that's damaged
Only know a love that lets me down, down, down

Oh, starin' contest with the walls
I'm givin' in to my intrusive thoughts

What if I never find anybody to love
Or I finally get the chance and I f- it all up?
'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave
Whoa, what if I get to heaven, and it's not even real
And I die before tellin' you how I really feel?
'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think
That maybe love's not for me

If you don't look too closely
You can't even tell I'm lonely
Even though it keeps me up at night, night, night
I try to keep myself distracted
But I got all these awful habits
Of listenin' to voices in my mind, mind, mind

Oh, starin' contest with the walls
I'm givin' in to my intrusive thoughts, oh

What if I never find anybody to love
Or I finally get the chance and I f- it all up?
'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave, whoa-oh
What if I get to heaven, and it's not even real
And I die before tellin' you how I really feel?
'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help, but think
Maybe love's not for me, oh-oh

Maybe love's not for me, oh-oh-oh
Maybe love's not for me
Maybe love's not for me
For me, for me, for me
Maybe love's not for me