Old Days on the Porch

Barrels in the backyard rot like debris
Or are my torments gnawin' at me?
One thing's for sure, now I'm a grown man kind of lost
Mama told me I'm out of my depth
As if I were plagued by troubled thoughts
If god can hear me, I won't lead me there, this my shout

I glance at my hands and I keep struggling
Hang on to the rail as if I were faintin'

Still alone on the porch, rain keeps fallin'
The lone man feels closely spied on
Without a care, I still get my water from the ground
I see that black old lady everywhere
And I can't get her out of my head
She blurs my vision and bursts through my lungs
Leave me breathless

A heart full of sin, I can't get rid of it
Forgettin' what I've learned, I am reeling

Three long nights have passed and I keep on striving
Maybe my mind's slowly givin' out
But I swear when I saw the old lady comin' hope was gone
She spits hate at me that I don't deserve
Have I drunk a poisoned beverage?
I don't think anyone will ever be there to answer me

I can't keep track on time but I'm workin' on
Hands on my watch just stopped moving
A man of my age has no right to end up so alone
Said I can't see daylight but I don't believe
What the hooded woman is whispering
Guess my fate is sealing on my rockin' chair
And rye whiskey

I suffer my old days on the porch and
Try to get away from the noise
Don't knew if it's real but I the threat's
Beating down my door