Had To

They just know I ran it up, they don't know what I been through
Nighttime, bro speedin', I was out the window
That's a scary sight, you gon' get buried prolly
Demons talkin' to me while I'm shootin', like, "Hit e'rybody"

Ain't sh- to hide, but I want the car tinted
I want the crib behind tall trees and fences
Have you ever had to kill one of yo' friends
'Cause the - that he was on was comin' between yo' plans?

Can't just cut him off 'cause he know too much about you
Sent a prayer up, don't worry about yo' kids and your mama, I got 'em
Then you gotta walk past the casket
Rememberin' how hard he hit the wall when you blast

To rememberin' how sad he sounded knowin' he through
Seein' shock and just disbelief in his eyes 'cause it was you
I had to, my ni-, I had to, ayy

Have you ever played roles with a -? And that sh- went too far
You done met this - kids, and you know that she in love
You tell her, she like, "She stuck", but you know that e'rythin' gon' change after you f-?
But you couldn't reveal your true intentions
She ain't the type a - that just let a - hit her

But - that, I got to, baby girl, I got you
Let me be the one you smile with and who you cry to
Anythin' you need, let me know, and I'll spot you
Hopin' she don't really ask you, though, because it's not true

You fell victim to my lust, my bad, boo, but you so cold and so thick, -, I had too
Only had like 250 in the bank but that ice and them jewelers steady callin' my name
They want 90 for the charm, 80 for the Cuban
I'm just knowin' it gon' kill me, but I gotta do it

Tryna make myself feel better like maybe it's gon' motivate me
Maybe when they see me with it, they gon' know I made it
I went and got it, that sh- ain't no nothin' for me, jack
And it's a custom piece, so I can't get no money back

I just thought I had to
- that sh- I thought I had to do
I just thought I had to
- that sh- I thought I had to do