grocery store

Disassociating in the grocery store
Left my body rotting down by aisle 3, on the floor

Paramedics showed up
Said I'm made of plastic
Barbie on the shelf
But I don't feel fantastic, no
Can't hear through the static
My mind's been held hostage in the attic, tragic

I keep
Squandering my own potential
All my problems residential
My brain is a detrimental place
It's a case of
Overthinking, sinking in my thoughts
Like is it real or is it not
The voices in my head, they talk

I want it, want it all to stop
Is this really my reality?
I want it, want it all to stop
Looking perfect when I'm on your screen
But honestly, I'm not
Even fucking happy
You might call it living
Must be kidding, it's a bad dream
Stop, stop
I'm just another fraud, please hold the applause

Hallucinating in a library
Reading these self help books
But they're scaring me
Say to meditate
A minute feels too long
Maybe I'm just too far gone

Tastes so artificial, it's official
Hard to keep it plain and simple
None of this is beneficial
Wait, I'm to blame, cause
I'm the cause, I'm the reason
Calling it self-loathing season
Trying to get away but I get caught

I want it, want it all to stop
Is this really my reality?
I want it, want it all to stop
Looking perfect when I'm on your screen
But honestly, I'm not
Even fucking happy
You might call it living
Must be kidding, it's a bad dream
Stop, Stop
I'm just another fraud, please hold the applause

They tell me don't cry over spilt milk
But it's seeping out my pores
A piece of cake don't feel so easy
When you eat it off the floor
And everyday I feel so lucky
When my teeth fall from my face
Didn't get too much to eat but hey
At least I fucking ate