Cold Dark Rooms

Cold blue mat on a wooden plank
Had to sleep at night but I couldn't think
Demons would whisper and tell me things
Seven days no contact, man, I was in pain
Hospital yard with puddles of rain
You really hurt me but I took the blame
Everybody said you wouldn't change
I took the chance and you stayed the same

Stomach hurting so bad, I ain't wanna eat
No socks, cold floor, couldn't feel my feet
Wanna jump out the window onto the street
These people aggressive, it's kinda scary
Looking at me dirty, everybody crazy
I was so scared, they ain't nothing like me
Dude going insane over something he ain't see

Thinks people in the ceiling, now he can't breathe
All these days were endless, I would stare at the clock
Wrote you two notes even though I should've stopped
Cause you ain't never would've cared if I dropped
Couldn't even tell you if you loved me or not
Wish I knew real love but I wasn't taught

I just wanted to go home
I ain't want you to be alone
Then I figured out you were going out with your friends
Going out smiling while I was stuck up in the pen
In a mental hospital, lost in my head
Every five minutes they'd check if I'm not dead
So many lonely nights and many tears shed
That was damn rock bottom, how much worse can it get
All these crazy people yelling in my face, I won't forget
Every single night there was a break for a cigarette

Every day in there my stomach would turn
Thinking bout you, my heart would burn
Cause I knew what I was going through, it wasn't really earned
I really needed you but you had turned
Felt like at that point my heart, got buried
What does it mean when you say you wanna marry
Wish never comes true, I need a fairy
Only made one friend but shout out my man Larry
Felt so sick in there, everybody staring
Felt so weird cause what I was wearing

Identical rooms going down the hall
I was really hoping that your love didn't fall
And I really wondered if you even cared at all
Cause when I got back, no texts, no calls
That's what really hurt, I was staring at the wall
Now I just feel like I have too many flaws

Cold, small, dark room, that's what I walk to
Cold, small, dark room, that's what I walk to
Cold, small, dark room, that's what I walk to
Cold, small, dark room, that's what I walk to