Fallin Apart

(Intro)
Energy dividin
Its hard for me to hide it
Think that i am stretched to thin
Falling apart
Got to remain focused
Filled with so much pain
Im hopping that you notice
(Hook)
Im waitin for all my cut
Money bags fillin up
Careful or you could get cut
Silver blade gimme luck
Cant wait to get out of the cut
Cause Second place aint enough
Anything to get outta this rutt
Its hard to make it through the sludge
My energy dividin
Its hard for me to hide it
Think that i am stretched to thin
Maybe Falling apart
Got to remain focused
Filled with so much pain
An im hopping someone notice
Here we go again
(First Verse)
Thinking to much
Tryin to better myself
Really wanna cut
Im saved by the bell
If I dont come up
In the next twelve years
Then ill probably find a way
To retire my shell
"Im killing myself"
Wanna feel myself
But I think I need help
Turning off my light
Issa often thought
Intrusive mind in my boiling pot
Step to mine
The gloves are off
Baki you
Gettin grappled up
How Many times
Do I hit these lines
To make an income
An support my son
Why oh why do I want to die
When im in a bad mood
I cant seem to shrug
Meditate to get better days
Is the mission in hand
So I Live with love
Any way that i live
Is offensive to 'some'
Couple turns around here
Get ya 'done'
Path that you walk
Can leave you so 'numb'
Couple of them hits
Can make you feel 'dumb'
Dont know what
Youll become
But gotta amount
To 'sum'
Apostles do roam
Under eclipse of the 'sun'
Medicated meditation 'Amen'
Wonder what lives
In the souls of these 'men'
Divided im ridin
But still pressin send
All of these things
That go on in my head
'Am I a good father'
'Am I a good friend'
What will my legacy be
When im dead
When is the day
That I wont be in debt
Im feeling upset a reality check
Is this a dream
I havent woken from yet
Seems like a nightmare
A hundred percent
(Hook)
Im waitin for all my cut
Money bags fillin up
Careful or you could get cut
Silver blade gimme luck
Cant wait to get out of the cut
Cause Second place aint enough
Anything to get outta this rutt
Trudging through all this sludge
My energy dividin
Its hard for me to hide it
Think that I am stretched to thin
Maybe Falling apart
Got to remain focused
Filled with so much pain
An im hopping someone notice
Here we go again
(Second Verse)
Hope sometime
Ill get 'out this void,'
Fear is a virus
That i 'cant ignore'
Gotta face it head on
Wonder 'whats in store'
If you feel like this
'play it back once more'
'Go get it right now,'
Never back down
As you take that crown
These screams in my head
Can seem so loud
Filling me up with
A 'shadow of Doubt'
This valley of death
Always 'Swirls about'
God got my back
Tho my 'energy out'
These ghouls all around
Keep breaking me down
Eating the pieces
Thats left on the ground
Fam keep me up
When my mind is not sound
Am i the vet or a dog
In this pound
Pain in this world is abundant
Renowned,'
Love is divided and rarely
Is found'
Why i never seem to find
The source of 'all this madness,'
That im keeping
Locked up deep inside
Im 'close to snappin,'
Steady creepin up this ladder
Careful cause the reaper hide
In every single corner
Im afraid imma boutta
Lose my mind
What is the wieght of the
Heart thats on hand,'
This stand of the scales
That i 'cant comprehend,'
Lighter than feathers
But 'heavy as lead,'
Its the matrix we live in
Confusing my friend,'
Divided our spirits
From 'beginning to end,'
Love all regardless
No matter the trend
Your karma decides
Where 'eternitys spent'
Do you want it in 'darkness,'
Or will you 'repent,'
(hook)
Im waitin for all my cut
Money bags fillin up
Careful or you could get cut
Silver blade gimme luck
Cant wait to get out of the cut
Cause Second place aint enough
Anything to get outta this rutt
Trudgin through all this sludge
My energy dividin
Its hard for me to hide it
Think that i am stretched to thin
Got to remain focused
Filled with so much pain
An im hopping someone notice
Here we go again