Self Belief

Ely
This rap shit really got me high, but I'm feeling low
I just wanna know, if I'm destined to blow
Everybody telling me I am, but I'll never know
Till that time comes, I'll keep living in snow
Ohio where I'm from, where nobody grows
Uncharted waters, we'll see where it goes, yeah
There's no one I owe
I came up from nothing, I did this alone, yeah
Opened my heart from a young age, never had a sensei
No Mr. Miyagi, to help me to work on my body to get paid
Had to go do it myself, and I think I'm doing well
But depression in the back my mind, keeps calling me back
I went to my doctor
And told her that I just keep having these panic attacks
She handed me pills, and said hope this shit helps
But that's shit just keep holding me back
Addiction keep fighting my way, everyday is a battle
I'm constantly walking thru mazes
Consistency saying, I think I'm amazing, but then I be hating
I'm alienating myself from my angels and growing with demons
Who suck out my soul just so they can keep breathing, I'm saying
Know I keep saying

When will I know? Could fall off any damn minute
I don't have much money, my bank is diminished
People keep calling, to tell me I'm finished
But I just stay fighting like buster I feel like I'm in it
I cannot be quitting
I'll fight till I'm finished, no tapping submitting
Even if I'm on my last of my winding
I'll grind till I'm winning, yeah
There's really nobody who ever believed that I make it
I'd tell em I would
And they said they believed it but they were just faking
Got millions of streams, and somehow these people keeping hating
They say I'm big headed now, all while they snaking
I see that shit now and I laugh
I was that kid in the back of my class, with a notebook and pen
Writing down all of my feelings, I let em sink in
And now that I'm winning, they all want an in
It's funny

I came up from nothing
And one of these days, the money gonna come in I know
And one of these days, the money gonna come in I know
And one of these days, the money gonna come in I know
And one of these days, the money gonna come in I know
And that's shits fasho, Ely