River

I was raised by the players in the game
That they didn't want to win, so they never treated the same
From the rougher side of the terrain
Renovatin' broken links in generational chain
Bigger than the curses and the claims
That I watched 'em try to put on my family's last names
Runnin' to the truth could look like runnin' from the lights and the fame
When you ain't forget the nights of the pain

Splittin' dice by the flame
Bettin' on the fights in my brain
Led to wrongin' all the rights in my lane
From the heights I obtained
I got extra ice in my veins
If you're thinkin' you could try, come again

I know time wasn't tame
I'm refined and I'm wise in the ways
That I find serendipity aligned and arranged
Strive in the middle of the grind
I'm lettin' it fall in line
To the rhythm of the river when I pray now

Another flight through the valley in the shadow of death
Tryna keep my head from out of the depths
That's where the hazard is left
'Cause this depression been as quiet as kept
Tried to sacrifice it for the success
Internal burdens while externally blessed
It's been a world I accept

My therapist said that's the too much to compress
Put my soul to the test, identity could be the infinite jest
Along with time robbing, all of the stress
It's work to stop the descent

It's different when the listener ventin', I understand
Commitment and fulfillment, I balance on either hand
I still get co-dependent and worry about the plan
Adjusting to a space where I'm callin' out the commands

Appreciate the patience while I've been learnin' to land
It's still a couple lines we've been drawin' over the sand
But I'm standing my ground with durability
Committed to deliverin' my essence of humility, for real