Can’t Live Like This

I met you in the summer
Still haven't recovered
From the day you said you loved me like a brother
I guess I'm just a sucker
But we could still be lovers
Until then I'll be holding onto something
Even though were nothing
I hope that you're just bluffing
The weight of us, yeah, its crushing
It's crushing

I could save my breath
But I don't think you know
The way it hurts my chest
Maybe I should go

You just want me
To act like I don't feel a thing
Every time that my iPhone rings
I just wonder how long that we'll be
Saying we're just friends
Knowing well that I can't live like this
But I don't wanna take that risk
Cause the thought of losing you makes me sick

I sit here hot in august
Thought I would have solved it
I'm trying not sweat in my modest apartment
You used to come on over
More often, now October's
Here and I just can't shake this weight off my shoulders
Should've told her
Now I'm backed right up to a corner
No closure, we're getting older
And I can't live like this sober
My toes hurt, walk slower
When I pace around thinking about her
In that tower, I just wish I would have shown her
That every time I drive past Oklahoma
I think about things that I should have told ya
Now you're gone and I was wrong
For thinking that I could live like this

You just want me
To act like I don't feel a thing
Every time that my iPhone rings
I just wonder how long that we'll be
Saying we're just friends
Knowing well that I can't live like this
But I don't wanna take that risk
Cause the thought of losing you makes me sick

I said I wouldn't say it
But now I can't avoid it
Maybe this feeling will be gone by the morning
You've got me laying restless
Thinking about Texas
Would you think I'm crazy if I said that I'm jealous?
I know that you're out with your friends right now
Maybe you started driving back to his house
The voices in my head, yeah, they get so loud
Maybe I should calm down