Shady Little Lady

Taking off my own hair
Taking off my own skin
Every pull and every tear pulling out a little grin
Gravitating little stares
To the stupor that I'm in
You don't want to see me bare
And you bare it with your gin

But the truth is, you don't wanna fight
With a lady in a shady little part of your mind
I wanna know
If you felt fully empty and dull
Would you spasm when she rattles in the side of your skull
I wanna know
She won't rest until you give into your pit of guilt
So pick until she's sitting still
I wanna ask
But I won't 'cause I already know what you'd say

Do I look a bit changed
When the session's all done
She's a rook and pushing danger
Clanging on my eardrum
And I know she's hurting me
And she loves to make me cry
But it's been five years
Since she crawled through my ear
And it'd be weird to say goodbye

Cause the truth is, you don't wanna fight
With a lady in a shady little part of your mind
I wanna know
If you felt fully empty and dull
Would you spasm when she rattles in the side of your skull
I wanna know
She won't rest until you give into your pit of guilt
So pick until she's sitting still
I wanna ask
But I won't 'cause I already know what you'd say

I don't wanna get better 'cause the burning gets better
And the lady knows better than you
I don't wanna get better 'cause the fire grows wetter
And you can't fix a shudder with glue

I don't wanna get better I don't wanna get better
I don't wanna so you'd better get used to
Lovely comfy self-destruct-y me

Cause the truth is I don't wanna fight
With the shady little lady in the back of my mind
I wanna know
If you felt fully empty and dull
Would you spasm when she rattles in the side of your skull
I wanna know
She won't rest until you give into your pit of guilt
So pick until she's sitting still
I wanna look in your eyes
But the lady decided to stay

Maybe you'll feel the pull of the pulling someday