If These Walls Could Speak

I've arrived at the title pages
Of this lonely life
Of this lonely life
I guess it's time that you're making changes
And I'm not alright
I'll stay up all night

I'm all the signs you pretend you didn't see
'Cause I'm plagued by invisibility
I lost the hope to stay for another year
And all the signs point away from here

Believe me, you'll be better in time
Can you see me? I've been out of my mind

So if these walls could speak
They'd tell the story of our last goodbye in this home
It's getting late and the future's bleak
If I could change the way I am, I would do it in a heartbeat
Cause what if it's just me who's flawed?
I dwell on all my wrongs, I've been hurting for a long time
I'm done with self hate, long nights, and teary eyes
Cause I can't sit here waiting for my fears to materialize

I've had enough of these tidal waves and
There's no room to breathe
There's no room to breathe
When your own skin is like a cage
And it's starting to break me
I'm longing to break free

I have nothing to say about the bitter days
Cause who cares for dismal essays
So look through my smoky eyes when it's said and done
You'll stay, hold on, but I guess I'm already gone

So if these walls could speak
They'd tell the story of our last goodbye in this home
It's getting late and the future's bleak
If I could change the way I am, I would do it in a heartbeat
Cause what if it's just me who's flawed?
I dwell on all my wrongs, I've been hurting for a long time
I'm done with self hate, long nights, and teary eyes
Cause I can't sit here waiting for my fears to materialize

I shed my angel wings
So to the world: come and break me
I hope that in the end it stings cause
My sharpest moments were piercing anyway

So if these walls could speak
They'd tell the story of our last goodbye in this home
It's getting late and the future's bleak
If I could change the way I am, I would do it in a heartbeat
Cause what if it's just me who's flawed?
I dwell on all my wrongs, I've been hurting for a long time
I'm done with self hate, long nights, and teary eyes
Cause I can't sit here waiting for my fears to materialize