Tired

Tired of lies
Tired of byes (tired of)
Tired of why's
Feeling surprised (when you can't)
Look in my eyes
See the demise
Even though I'm feeling the lows
You're seeing the highs
Tired of rules
Feeling the blues (feeling like)
Cutting the fuse
Leads me to you (and I don't)
Know what to do
To pass the review (but I love)
Just us two
Just me and you

And I tried everything (everything)
I didn't hold back (I didn't hold back)
But everything is killing me
And it starts to crack (and it starts to)
I tried, I cried, I nearly died
I tried, I cried, I nearly
Died (cause I'm)

Tired
Telling me to do this or that
Telling me whats fiction or fact
Tired
Tryna' ignore this voice in my head
But it leaves me stuck in my bed

I'm on my knees
Praying to breath
You see clean water but not underneath
Don't want to bother you
Thoughts I've reprieved
Times I can't see
Buried too deep
Hopelessness
Its got a hold on me
Picked up the phone
Then hit recieve
There is no we
If I fail at the task
To control Z

Remember the last time that I remembered
Pieces of my soul they were dismembered
Bleeding my heart almost time to surrender
Freezing my mind never loads the whole render
Like the cold of December
6 months ago I stopped sober endeaevors
But now I don't know where to go so here's this letter
I hope it connects to your soul
For the better (for the better)

Off axis eccentric
I was expectin' to blend in
Weak points connected, electric
In what feels like a second
Diagnosed with forgettin'
Dealin with all of the damage
From the shield my alter invented
Separation caused from my evil's tormenment
Pressure boiled up
Unhinged
Be ready to fend it
If I could say, I would
If I did it, I meant it
I scend all of the things that I regretted
Let it seep into my message embedded
I got my pen as a tenant
Now I can only empathize with it
I'm too far away from what spells out repentance
Like a cord with no extension
Worries unplug
They stop showing love
But you'll lose it all
If you end it