Loneliest Kid

You would think that it would change after all I did
A thousand people in the crowd I'm still the loneliest kid
You say that it's fire after all I spit
But I'm alone in the room do you know how cold it gets?
Yeah, do you know how cold it gets?
Trynna find my purpose and this is my sole attempt
They did me wrong dead inside it's all resentment
I'm a skeleton that got too many bones to pick
I know this shit but fuck it must be the demons
Never enough, I know it's tough to believe it
I mastered the art of never being content
But contento means happy I think there must be a reason
I just gotta breathe I say relax to my brain
Gotta build a legacy for after my days
I witnessed how artists can change a life I'm amazed
But I can't convince myself I can impact them the same
In fact I became the first to second guess myself
The voices eating at me I reject your help
I let my health deteriorate the record sales
Upset me and fail and now the shit affects my wealth
No matter how many hands I shake I'm still an outsider
Robin Williams taught us you can never trust a smile
I'm thinking now "what are these lines?" cause you say it's flames
But all I do misses, so I doubt fire
Fuck it gimme a pill to fix it all
It's no fun if there's no drugs or no alcohol involved
I give mom and dad a call and they're saying they're proud of me
If they knew the truth they wouldn't be proud of me at all
You would think that it would change after all I did
A thousand people in the crowd I'm still the loneliest kid
You say that it's fire after all I spit
But I'm alone in the room do you know how cold it gets?
Used to think that if I got it I would be content
But this is the problem when you go and dream too big
All the people around and no one gives a shit
A thousand people in the crowd I'm still the loneliest kid
Sitting outside, seeking that help
When I'm out there they don't know my hell there
I got my feed up now
Feeding my soul, know I'm well
Dead doubt, just me and my self
Meeting my self what a mighty spell
Cover my sleeves while I am greeting
Watch my feelings fade
Chase, I seek
I found myself with a low plea
Clarify my love
Was butter I became ghee
Hold my hands, make me whole
I will find your holy code
Cleanse my feed and warm my soul
Through that pain I'll find my hope
You would think that it would change after all I did
A thousand people in the crowd I'm still the loneliest kid
You say that it's fire after all I spit
But I'm alone in the room do you know how cold it gets?
Used to think that if I got it I would be content
But this is the problem when you go and dream too big
All the people around and no one gives a shit
A thousand people in the crowd I'm still the loneliest kid