To Be Found

I called your bluff
At a party
Didn't know what it was
I kinda felt sorry
Fixed my hair before I left
So unaware of everything left unsaid

I hit the ground running
I should've known that nothing good was coming
When my knees gave out, I couldn't pick myself up off the ground
I didn't know how to tell you
I never want to be found
To be found

Whispered voices
In the kitchen
Tried not to make noise
Without my permission

In the hallway, down the stairs
Tried to pretend like the ghost wasn't there

And I tried to escape it
You know it wasn't easy to replace it
When my knees gave out, everything I know was left in doubt
I didn't know how to tell you
I never wanted to be found
To be found
To be found
To be found

And in little moments
You didn't know where you were going
Overflowing
As if I wouldn't ever notice, as if your words had been frozen

And in secret keeping

As if I was immune to the scheming
Stopped my breathing
Held my breath as I said I was leaving
As if the thought of us had lost its meaning
As if nothing hurts more than believing

I called your bluff
At a party
I didn't know what it was
I kind of felt sorry
Stood back up, looked around
Never knowing what next
To be found