Hey, what's up Phil

Hey, what's up, Phil
Can I call you Phil?
I hope so

I fucked up and I'll go and fucking do it again
The wrist got cut from all my fucking ignorance
Can't decide whether or not I wanna live this shit
My brains been scattered from all the pointlessness

Fucked up in the head, but I keep on moving forward
I've seen this all before, but I cannot just ignore it
I can't fucking help myself
I can't fucking help myself
I can't fucking help myself
It's torture

It's torture
It's torture
It's torture
I'll leave I want-
It's torture
It's torture
We kissed, we kissed, we kissed

We kissed in the foyer
She grabbed my arm
She told me don't fucking leave her
I thought I'd need her
But she got me deceiving
So I'm deleting all my trust it's bleeding

Like my wrist that I cut with the knife in my heart
My thoughts displaced and I'm fucked, but I don't give a fuck
It's all the trust, it's the trust that just got fucking lost
But I don't know
What to do or where to keep all my thoughts
Don't know where to keep all my thoughts
Oh no, where to keep all my thoughts
Don't know where to keep all my thoughts
I just killed myself with the gun that shit went-

Don't know where to keep all my thoughts
Yeah my brain blown open, my skull open
Thinking and it's leaking out, exploded

That shit, all over the floor
The walls, blood paints the curtains
Can't take this shit no more
It's fucking certain

I fucked up and I'll go and fucking do it again
The wrist got cut from all my fucking ignorance
Can't decide whether or not I wanna live this shit
My brains been scattered from all the pointlessness

Fucked up in the head, but I keep on moving forward
I've seen this all before, but I cannot just ignore it
I can't fucking help myself
I can't fucking help myself
I can't fucking help myself
It's torture

I don't know what I'm doing anymore in my life
I don't think I ever knew
I'm so lost
I don't know what I want
I don't understand myself
I don't understand other people
I'm afraid of myself and the world
And I have no idea what to do
Sometimes I feel like dying
And then
That same day an hour later
I'm ecstatic to be alive
Most of the time I feel absolutely nothing
I wish things were better
I wish my life had more meaning
I wish the world had more meaning
I can't stand the world
I can't stand people
I can't figure out shit
And I don't think I ever will
Hopefully I can just earn enough money to get by and survive
Some people have passion
Some people have dreams
But not everyone gets to have those
I see that now
Anyway, I hope you're doing alright Phil.

(I'm Awake)
(I'm Awake)



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Writer(s): Caleb Simmons
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