Anxiety

Sometimes i feel like
I'm drowning in this place
Like a river on my brain
But no one seems to care

I cry like a kid under my bed
Like hiding really scared
But i can not understand
And i'm running out of breath

Is it me? Is it me?
Am i the problem?
Why do i feel like this?
What to i do with this?
Hate myself
Hate this place
But no one seems to care

Is it me? Is it me?
Is it all in my head?
Why nobody helps?
Just standing there
See your fake smile
But i just wanna die

I'll try to fake it all tonight
To draw an amazing vibe
Creating a whole type
Expanding to your size

I think i deserve a gold medal
For acting this whole time
And fooling all this town
When it's all a lie

Is it me? Is it me?
Am i this mess?
They all ran away
Not even second guessed
Feel like i'm missing out
Always left behind

Is it me? Is it me?
Am i there yet?
Like an enthusiast
I've been working out
Building up these walls
But they're about to fall

I'm tired of this
So sick of this
Pretending it's all good
All good all fine yeah
"It's gonna get better" oh nah
"Keep going, keep going" please
You don't realize how hard this is
I can't breathe, can't eat, can't sleep
Can't walk, can't talk,can't laugh
Can't try, can't smile, can't live
Been screaming on mute for years
My mom's been trying to help
I love the way she cares
My heart breaks all the time
Cuz i'll never be that smart
I've tried so hard to make
All of my people safe
To make them all be proud
But i'm just dead inside

Hijo te amo mucho, mucho
Con todo mi corazón
Hasta el cielo, dos vueltas
Y de regreso