Scars

Today I'm not in my mood
So take a song about my thoughts

Seasons change weather's getting cold
I'm still sittin' in my room realizin' that I'm getting old
It's not about my age I'm just 24
But it's sad to understand that I don't count my years anymore
Feels like some ideas always follow me
I listened to Sade now I'm the king of sorrow
We're lost in moments my moments are not enough
I do need some real feelings all I am into is just a bluff
I got so many killers from behind
They're breathing down my neck and I simply pretend to be blind
But I ain't got no beef with no man
My whole beef is inside between me and myself
Lifelong lost opportunities
The person I could be looks at me and says
Who is he? What the hell? Where the f*ck are all my songs?
You just didn't have the right to be silent for so long
Silence, this is who is killing me
I had many things to say that I just didn't do, silly me
Now I got those words left inside my brain
All this missing life is runnin' through my veins
All the girls that I liked but I did never tell 'em about it
They still here and wondering why I've always doubted
They got questions and they know for them I got no answers
They keep in mind taking back all the unused chances

Scars make so hard to survive
The endless fights with me
Cuz I left my heart in those nights
When I was blind, useless

I got past I got future but no present time
I'll always be the crazy diamond who hasn't shined
Since I was a child I have been swimmin'
In my sea of melodies with no end no beginning
But all that sh*t makes no sense
Swimmin' doesn't make the music so the ladies won't dance
With me? Nah, I'm standin' in the corner
Following the party with the look of an explorer
So the party ended I went home
I got nobody with me I need to stay alone
To think and question why I was stayin' hidden?
To analyze the the things that I could do but I just didn't
That's all about the day congrats I got new thoughts
I'm goin' to the studio I need to write a song
About that, look, this is my lifecycle
Being lost in this loop is turnin' me into a psycho
Quittin'? Man I've just started
I'm the only one to break me but I'm cold-hearted
I'll stand tall that's what Cube taught me
I'm followin' the path where the want
Brings joy and passion always pushin' me forward
Don't need no easy money no gingerbread awards
Tell me what's the thing you need the most?
And how you even get it cuz I'm only getting close

Scars make so hard to survive
The endless fights with me
Cuz I left my heart in those nights
When I was blind, useless

Scars make so hard to survive
The endless fights with me
Cuz I left my heart in those nights
When I was blind, useless

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