Blinds

Feeling like the end of the world at the end of the come down
I will never take my own advice
Went from running home right at sundown
Now I'm tryna sleep with the sun shining through my blinds

What a night!
Drank enough to put the evil within, in a coma
Coming down, sour mood
'Cause I know that it's suppose to
I feel these sad song playlisters hit they quotas
And I hate (hate) coming to the mic
To cry 'bout how I've been fucked over

I see people fighting for their lives
You see the ascent of a good trend
You smell the love in the air
I smell the scent of the undead

Some things are better when unsaid
'Cause at the inevitable end
Deception for the credit to go
Levels above questionable lengths
One perception of events

So how many words matter
If they don't make a difference?
An era came and went, no one's worse or better for it
Tell your story, some will pay to listen
You'll get lost in the nostalgia
As we stare at a fading image

Lied to my mom, "I ain't got no homework"
Knowing I'd be dead if I flunked out
Just to go out skating with my friends
Streetlights came on, momma called
She said, "You best better run now"
At night, I've only dreamt to have snuck out
But right now, I'm

Feeling like the end of the world at the end of the come down
I will never take my own advice
Went from running home right at sundown
Now I'm tryna sleep with the sun shining through my blinds

I jump to the end
And I lie, and I bluff, more than I care to admit
And love, love didn't have shit to do with it
I did this for me (I did this for me)
To come out on top with the world in my palm
And I saw, that who I've wanted to be
Is who I've been all along

At a point where the path that I'm on now seems to divert
One life will end, the other begins
The decision speaks to my worth
Who I think should die first
When apocalypse reigns
The only apologies I have are for the people I've hurt

When a mortal's spirit is neglected
They'll start eating your soul
And by some twisted work of fate
The world would hand this to you
So I respect you for leaving me when I needed you most
That's some self-respecting shit, I've been too pansy to do

I'm used to being the people-pleaser that everybody hated
Some saw an opportunity to benefit, and I felt obligated
I could blame it on the way that I was raised
But I could give a fuck
I'm fuckin' proud to leave it behind (uncomplicate it)

I was trapped inside a life that I was not alive in
Resurrected by my God, I overcame
What I was not aligned with
If you deem yourself as all-seeing, then I am all-defiant
'Dawn of the Eternal Rise of JohnnyCyrin'
Motherfuckers, it's the

End of the world at the end of the come down
I will never take my own advice
Went from running home right at sundown
Now I'm tryna sleep with the sun shining through my blinds

I jump to the end (what's up?)
And I lie, and I bluff, more than I care to admit
And love, love didn't have shit to do with it
I did this for me (I did this for me)
To come out on top with the world in my palm
And I saw that who I've wanted to be
Is who I've been all along

Do you understand that what comes outta your mouth matters?
Did you know that the quality of your life
Is dictated by the words of your mouth?
Do you know that a little lie is still a lie? Yeah?
Y'all still with me, though, right?
What do ya mean?
You cannot tell a lie to somebody
And think that you're doing good
(And I'm finally being honest with myself)