Waterfront Meditation (Public Ed. Version)

It was all a dream
I used to read
Now that's a lie, because the truth in the rhyme is I didn't like reading until 23
Life changes in a way you don't expect
Never thought the hood reject would become an intellect, I'd like to
Personally thank the people who provided trauma
I never thought I'd learn math because they told me to chase a comma
I never thought I'd learn discipline by ignoring comments
I never thought I'd give direction without having father
Figure regardless
Triggered and modest
My dinner costs more than your outfit if I'm being honest
Pardon the armor
Defense mechanism
I try to find the ways to prove that I'm still better than them
Right or wrong it's hard to tell
I write these songs and hope that well
One day they'll boost my record sales, but
I did this one for me, yeah

I haven't talk to my father in like three years
Health is getting worse so him passing is a small fear
But him passing his ideas and harassing me I feel
Could be more of a detriment, so I'm not passing sentiments
One of my exes thought we could amend it
Something about not letting the past become the present, but
We don't speak anymore so I question if she meant it
She told me not to mention her in songs so I should
Stop while I'm ahead at least that's what my mom had said
26 counting new ways to get bread
Moderately successful but still don't think it's a solution for half the things that I've said
Right or wrong it's hard to tell
I write these songs and hope that well
One day you stumble across it on your own
Hear something you're going through and know you're not alone, yeah