Cannabis, Fears and Tribulations

Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
It's Da Bhest and you know
Look
My demons show the worst of me
Mom, I hope you pray for me
I hope to find the silver line to make it out this tragedy
I smoke to kill the scary dreams
Mary Jane keeps helping me
To overcome my fears and my tribulations
Constantly
Don't know what's going on with me
But I've lost the will to live
I think that I'mma die before my thirties
And that's fine with me
This ganja turned me into a fiend
Daily got me over thinking
This life wasn't meant for me
I was meant to live the dream
Always told myself I'll be a legend when I leave the world
Now I'm feeling overwhelmed
Need a 'J' to calm me down
I roll a spliff to clear my mind
The cannabis my therapy
Sativa knows my thoughts are dark
And I know no light
I'm falling apart
Like all the shit I'm doing is just never right
I mean, I took a leap of faith and strayed into the dark
I mean, I almost lost my mind and almost lost my life
For what?
To pose up on the 'Gram like I ain't dead inside?
I'm not gonna die in silence
Rather smoke up on the blunt and spazz up on the mic
If I told you how I'm feeling, would you empathize?
Would you really lend an ear, tell me I can cry?
Well, that really is the reason why I don't confide
'Cause niggas talk about their feelings and get crucified
Well, I decided I'll get me a saviour
Man, I started hitting blunts and started living happier
Started growing out my hair and it got fucking nappier
I got fucking haters now
That means that I made it now
That means I've been noticed, that's something I'm always proud about
I'm a fucking problem, VAY is in his pocket now
Bringing Godly sounds, I'm as holy as gospel song
Niggas put me on
My hommies back me up, they play my songs
And with my hommies bro, we'll sure take it 'cross the fucking globe
Right hand to God
This jolly shit should surely put me

But you gotta start understanding
What you need to do
To make a change, you know?
And in your life
If you need to make a change in your life
You need to
Take the necessary steps
Yo big dawg, I actually get that
You know what I'm saying?
Like, that's totally makes sense
Because a person definitely gets to a point
Where they feel like
They gotta be on the lookout for themselves
You know what I'm saying?
Not because they selfish or anything but
It's also important to do something
That's gonna benefit you as an individual because
Not everybody is gonna be on the lookout for you
You know what I'm saying?
Especially, uhm
The people that you think
Or the people that are saying they repping you that hard
Are probably not even repping you as hard as you think they are
Or as hard as they saying they are, so
It's important to also just hold yourself down and make sure that
You know what to do
When you in a position
When you in a position like that
And I feel like, I've learned a lot from being in a position like this
And, I just gotta keep my head up high
And make sure that
I get to what I want
That's all