Pain

I swear I can't stand it
This life has shot me down
Silver bullets of pain
No, I can't take it
I can't take it, away

Drifted but I'm so tired, I can't even sleep
I've been awake for so long, I've lost count of the sheep
When I think I smoke more and the cycle repeats
I'm weak and my throats sore from tryin' to scream
And when I drink, I grow horns, that's the sign of the beast
When they be askin' how I'm doin', I'm lyin' to peeps
I ain't gon' lie, when I go home, I just cry in the sheets
And pray to God that when I crash, I don't die in my sleep

I may never live up to the man that I'm dyin' to be
I keep down this troubled path that I might have to leave
My mind's more violent than the shit you would find in the streets
I'm at my wit's end with who that I'm tryin' to be
Battle addiction, needin' what I want but can't get it
This story stems from isolation in the pandemic
I'm goin' toe to toe with rappers that you worship and you call gods
And against all odds that man did it

I swear I can't stand it
This life has shot me down
Silver bullets of pain
No, I can't take it
I can't take it away

One day I'm amazin' and the next, I just want it to end
Make it seem like I ain't phased when I run into friends
Hard to know if I'm better, so I try to pretend
So I just drink and smoke until I'm in bed with the spins
But I know they can't wait to see the day I got a deal
Swallowin' pride ain't as easy as swallowin' pills
Demons in your life and e'rybody got 'em
If they try me, I'ma make it e'rybody problem

I always blame my parents for the man that I'm not
My father told me I'd be 30 and still pushin' a mop
And if I was, then he'd disown me right there on the spot
But won't you look at him now? Callin' me, givin' me props
But next time that you try to call me, know now that that call fails
Did this on my own, you rappers tellin' tall tales
I'm tryna be the best, number one and nothin' less
I'ma take over the world, your mission is just small scale

I swear I can't stand it
This life has shot me down
Silver bullets of pain
No, I can't take it
I can't take it away



Credits
Writer(s): Craig Lanciani, Mason Davis
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