Can't Pretend

We were in trouble you called it love
It faded away in the settling dust
You were king of the hill of "it is what it was"
Baby it was your fault baby it is a shame
Baby you broke your crown tumbling down you came
Right back to my feet but I kicked you away

Then I felt that kind of panic
That you feel in black and white
It's a key in my chest in a storm at the end of a kite
And I don't quite understand it
But I'm counting on lightning to strike
It's the sword in the stone in my throat at the end of the night

Please don't make me hurt you, you have no regrets but I do, do you
Know how much I loved you baby
Try to understand I can't pretend
That's on me
That's on me
I can't pretend
That's on me
That's on me

We were in New York we went to war
It's benches and trenches and corner stores
You set off the landmine I hid in the floor
Baby blew you to bits baby lost your whole face
Baby I wish we could have had it both ways
The man in the tank and the man on the stage

It's that reckless kind of magic
But the kind that gets it done
It's the eye of the storm in my hands coming out of a gun

Please don't make me hurt you, you have no regrets but I do, do you
Know how much I loved you baby
Try to understand
That I don't
Want to but I have to, tonight's
Happy ever after, after everything we've been through this is how the story ends
I can't pretend
That's on me
That's on me
I can't pretend
That's on me
That's on me

Baby I'm moving on
Maybe I'm in the wrong
Maybe I miss you now
Maybe I'll come around
Or maybe I'll say out loud

Please don't make me hurt you, you have no regrets but I do, do you
Know how much I loved you baby
Try to understand
That I don't
Want to but I have to, tonight's
Happy ever after, after everything we've been through this is how the story ends
I can't pretend
That's on me
That's on me
I can't pretend
That's on me
That's on me