Where He Lies

(Feel my body emotionless deep inside, I can)
(See my funeral already this where he lies)
(I'm there by this big cruel world that I reside in)
(This the world that I die in)

One day I woke up
I didn't know what was ahead of me
Had a routine check at the dentist
And after the scan they found something they'd never seen
He said
"Look at the screen, this could be a mass"
What does it mean? That's all we could ask
I ended up getting a biopsy twice
And then the results came back

But I didn't know that yet
I was in school looking down at a test
But then when I left, I walked to the car to see both of my parents
They're waiting
This pain in my chest kept on creeping inside, they're never both waiting for me to arrive
And I had a feeling that something had happened and right when I asked them
They both had this look in their eyes

My sister got into the car
And both of us started to panic
The feeling was manic
I said tell me what's wrong 'cause I couldn't stand it
Madison street, halfway down towards moonlight
My mom had a tear down her cheek when she told her son he had cancer

That's when my soul left my body
And all I could see was the weakness I carried inside for the rest of the ride
I would be numb in my silence while all of my family would cry, like am I alive?
What's there to live for? Now I'm a boy who was destined to die
Like why even try?
The boy who had dreams the one who existed before this arised

I can feel my body emotionless deep inside, I can
See my funeral already this where he lies
I'm there by this big cruel world that I reside in
This the world that I die in
Feel my body emotionless deep inside, I can
See my funeral already this where he lies
I'm there by this big cruel world that I reside in
This the world that I die in

But then I got out, I couldn't feel my feet when they'd hit the ground
I couldn't feel the beat when my heart would pound
I start to drown, tears running down my face
And I'm wondering how all these tears have escaped
When I was so numb and I ain't feel a thing
And that's how it felt for like all of my days

5 a.m. it was so early
It's the day of my surgery
This the day they would murder me
I felt nothing internally
I didn't feel sadness
I was prepared for the worst, I assumed it would happen
The next thing I knew I had a doctor surrounding me
Marking my face with risk cancerrodomy

Then we rolled out of the room, my parents had said their goodbyes
I thought in that moment I'm doomed taking me to my demise
They lifted me onto the table
One of them looked in my eyes and asked me to move then count up to ten
And all I remembered was five

Feel my body emotionless deep inside, I can
See my funeral already, this where he lies
I'm there by this big cruel world that I reside in
This the world that I die in
Feel my body emotionless deep inside, I can
See my funeral already this where he lies
I'm there by this big cruel world that I reside in
This the world that I die in