MERRY GO ROUND

I'd sell my soul to feel alive again
Some days, I wish I could pretend
So sick of wakin' up in the mornings

I find myself prayin' to God again
I don't know if I hear a friend
'Cause it's just me doin' the talkin'

I'm stuck inside this merry-go-round
Don't know if I wanna get out
What's so wrong bein' honest?

'Cause I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say, "I'm fine," but I hurt inside

I fall in love, I fuck it up
Then wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified

All my days feelin' like weeks again
I find myself spiralin'
With every turn, I lose a piece of my heart

Stuck inside this merry-go-round
Don't know if I wanna get out
What's so wrong with bein' honest?

'Cause I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say, "I'm fine," but I hurt inside

I fall in love, I fuck it up
Then wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified

And I'm on my knees, surrounded
Just underneath, I'm drownin'
It is all a lie, and I'm terrified

I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say, "I'm fine," but I hurt inside

I fall in love, I fuck it up
Then wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified