Long Way Home

Asleep in your bedroom, I felt so safe there
Wish I could call you out, but do I dare?
Wish you could see me now from way down there
They never found you out
Lucky you, look at you now

I'm trying hard to think of a reason
To hold your hand through the winter season
But what's the point? I always end up freezing
You laugh like it's funny, I think you're just teasing me now

But i can't recall the last time you called me sober, anyway
So why should it matter at all to you if I go or if I stay?
Weren't you the one who said you needed space?
Weren't you the one who said that it's me you hate?
I hate to see you go, but I cant make you stay
And I hate to cross your mind, so I'll take the long way home

Awake in my bedroom, I'm having nightmares
I put on my best act so they don't stare
Wish you could see me now from way down there
But I don't want you to
Lucky me, look at me now

I'm trying hard to rewire my senses
Put up my walls and arm my defenses
But what's the point? It's at my expense
You laugh like it's funny, I wish I could show you somehow

But i can't recall the last time you called me sober, anyway
So why should it matter at all to you if I go or if I stay?
Weren't you the one who said you needed space?
Weren't you the one who said that it's me you hate?
I hate to see you go, but I cant make you stay
And I hate to cross your mind, so I'll take the long way home

And your name still finds its way into my mouth sometimes
And the words you said still occasionally cross my mind
I'd bury you six feet under if I had the time
I've got better things to do so I turn a blind eye

But i can't recall the last time you called me sober, anyway
So why should it matter at all to you if I go or if I stay?
Weren't you the one who said you needed space?
Weren't you the one who said that it's me you hate?
I hate to see you go, but I cant make you stay
And I hate to cross your mind, so I'll take the long way home