If Only I Could Sleep

I've spoken worlds into being
I've walked great stars through doors in my dreams
I've colored my past with warm energies
White lies
Orange eyes
Aqua marine in the mind
Cool thoughts
See future as rhyme
Constrained by the syllabic prayers of deliverance
Delivered by a great gift of wayward brilliance
Experienced as an insane indifference to men and God
Time and narratives
False imperatives
All unbearable
A sky-like wonder realized by thunder
Resides in a storm like mind I've smothered
I'm much younger
I've died many times
Such trivial meaning defines all visions
I'm empty of significance
I won't be surprised if I die again in this life will I?

If only I could sleep
Will I show the world
This is not a dream?

From silence rises mind
Localization of spirit
Borrows like mirrors and destroys all near it
Yet purports to be great and reveals nothing
I've drank its poison and became unchosen
But a void of pain took away my choices
And contained my focus and erased my voices
I'm insane no more I've been replaced by the sun
I was someone
A seed of lies catalyzed in the mud
A breed of flies confined like a drug
Aligned to the studs of time
Stuck
But I drug my knife through a pastel scene
Of chalken eyes in charcoal dreams
Exposed my being to the art
And the seams of my heart came apart
I was broken free

If only I could sleep
Will I show the world
This is not a dream?

Tongue of fire spitting ice
Frostbite in the still white shrill of the night
Lost light in the bright hot killing of the self
Mind melting in the head spilling wealth
Revealing truth for the bold renewal
Calm flowing heat whispering through the shimmering chimes
Seen glistening deep in the wintery eyes of a saint
Burning at the stake
It takes no time to be no one
There is no one to unbecome
It takes no less than death to find your life
Through pale mornings and stale nights
I'm color and light
I've otherized thoughts
Uncovered by sudden enlightenment
Fluttering like butterflies
I wonder if I'm dreaming

If only I could sleep
Will I show the world
This is not a dream?

If only I could sleep
Will I show the world
This is not a dream?

If only I could sleep
Will I show the world
This is not a dream?

If only I could sleep
Will I show the world
This is not a dream?

If only I could sleep
Will I show the world
This is not a dream?



Credits
Writer(s): Nathan Hutchinson
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