Outrospective

Looking in the mirror, picking out my favourite black suit
Look around, know you never being back soon
What you wearing? Prolly spiffy in the after life
Gotta cut the cameras, take a picture from your better side
So many stories that I heard before
But if you here to tell em, I'd be on the floor
I can't deny I miss that little demon
A proper son raised, that smile, it still be beaming
Sky is overcast, fallacy is pathetic
I try to mental math but it's all arithmetic
It's gonna hit real soon, right up here in my chest
Try to process the procession, hope in peace you will rest, ungh
With your laugh, everyone would try to harmonize
Silent car ride, by the past, we are hypnotized
A journey ends for another just to take a pause
At a loss
Try to pick the pieces, this the thesis, we gon'

Be alright
Celebrate your life, and
Hoping that you woke up from your nightmare
Here to night
Gonna stand up straight and eulogize
Try to reminisce on all them better times
Till day light
I ain't ever seen em like this
Parents in my mind just as I type this
They still try
To hold on to the memory
Hoping they won't have to do it separately

Gotta phone a friend, tryna drink up all this Casperade
I must be mistaken; this a masquerade?
It's funny how people speak about you dead and gone
When you said I love you they look at you like you said it wrong
But now they truly meant it all along
Put a picture in their house, write a letter, pen a song
Where was the love when you used to stay up down here breathing?
Trade in all the likes in the world for a simple feeling
Flowers they first gave were the flowers on your grave
Smile and a wave, every message got it saved
Imma stake my claim, an obituary odyssey
Crossin every name, they're the reason that I'm gonna see
A fresh empty seat at the 'tirement home
Family's always asking "why was he so alone?"
Beloved friend and brother, never picked up the phone
They got each and every lie, up there etched in the stone, but we gon'

Be alright
I'll shut out all these mannequins
Battle every one to get you back again
Yes, I'm fine
They dig up on your heart of gold
Prolly gonna ask me how this record sold
Chase that high
Go and tattoo your initials
But they know the friendship artificial
It's not right
They pray up on their precipice
But this ain't no business or religion

Noone knew about your feelings, you would cover em up
Noone knew about the rain, all the knives and the cuts
Noone knew about your health, it was never abrupt
Noone knew about your struggle, you would suffer in dust
What if I told you that I need you, all the secretive stuff?
What if I told you that your best, it was always enough
What if I told you that I miss you, would you send from above?
What if I told you that I loved you, it was never a bluff
I just can't

Be alright
Cuz anywhere I see you now
Turned this whole curse into a hand me down
I still cry
Every time I hear your name
Every time we chill, you know it's not the same
One last time
I'm living life in monochrome
Wish I woulda told you you were not alone
Say it twice
I love you till my time's due
Know that I'll never forget you