Big, Big World

My friends aren't fake,
It's just 3am
I fear some day
They'll slip through my hands

I'm feeling introspective
But my memory's shot
It's a side effect of
Acting like you're someone you're not

You say it never happens til it happens to you,
We're grabbing at the present but we don't want to move
It's the commemorative, celebration event of living past 18

I'm feeling like a rebel, but I'm counting my days
Do I let him start to light it, or do I walk away?
It's the self-soothing assumption, the wary assurance since I was 14

It's a big, big world, but it's not big enough
It's a shot in the dark, but I loaded the gun
I said it'd never happen, but it happened to me
I'm fighting with the present as it buries me

It's not just tonight, it's every day in between
I'm fighting with the present as it buries me
It's a shot in the dark, but I loaded the gun
It's a big, big world, but it's not big enough

I think about you as I'm driving under the bridge
My mind starts to wander, and I'm back in your bed
I'm breathing in the scene and I already know,
There'll be a time where this will be as fleeting as snow

It's a never-again, and it's a pain in my side
I am back on the road and there's a sorrow in my eyes
I'm screaming at the walkers, I am speeding through lights
It's an ache in my chest, and its a pain in my side

It's not just tonight, it's every day in between
I'm fighting with the present as it buries me
It's a shot in the dark, but I loaded the gun
It's a big, big world, but it's not big enough