Upside Down

I always see things upside, upside down
I don't trust us to turn this ship around
I always see things
I wish I knew how to make it through to you But of late it's in vain to do
Every single day I'm in pain it's true
But I can't complain cause the pain is you
Stay the same, remain in pain, afraid what change oughta make me do
Would it take you too, would it break you loose
Would it make the debate way too great to truce
Whose life is this
Every other night I'm in strife with this
Telling me what's right and I might resist
Cause I like a fight and I like a twist
And I persist, with tightened fists
Looking in the mirror who am I fighting with
Only thing I fear in this life is this
Pulling in the pier tryna right the ship
So I take another sip to distract myself
Can I make another hit of this aspirin help
Ask myself as I sit and think and I slip and faint taking out my shelf
This is it, our deepest pit
Lights go out like we flicked a switch
If this is quits, must resist
But I always see things
With a very slight twist
Nightmares aren't like this
Quite scared I'm fight-less
So I might just not care when I light this
Shit, can't keep living my life like this

I always see things
Upside down, inside out
I got doubt that I'll flip it around
But I'm sick of the sound of the wistfully bound It's an itch to be switched to be blissfully wound
Wish to be found when I drift and I drown When the sips of the fifth hit the lips of my mouth
Figured it out, switch to the crown
Swish it around, feel the grip of the ground
I'm surrounded in flames but I founded the pain
I'm not bound to the chain I'm bound for a change
Mountains will shake with an ounce of the faith
But I doubt it so now I don't give what it takes
Live with mistakes, build 'til it breaks and I'm filled with the rage that I spill on the page
Every mil that I make is a chase to be saved but the bills that I pay take away the escape
Pleading and begging for someone to help
Tell me I'm heading to heaven, not hell
Tell me it's heavy to take on myself and you'll take off the burden to empty the shelf
Hell, maybe that person exists
Maybe my life has already been fixed
Maybe I like to be throwing these fits when I push away people who show me these gifts

Maybe my life has already been fixed
Maybe I like to be throwing these fits when I push away people who show me these gifts, cuz
I always see things upside, upside down
I don't trust us to turn this ship around
I always see things upside, upside down
I don't trust us to turn this ship around
I always see things