Spiritual Bouquet

Yeah
With my wine and tea
Anger got the best of me
Write until forever
Guess that's what they mean by destiny

Thinking bout the rest of me
Sip until I feel it
Then I get back on the lesson thing
I been tryna pray more

On that blessing thing
I get back what I put in
On that heaven thing

Used to think about the ones attending
On that wedding thing
But now I'm forced to focus
On the life after the editing

Cash flows up, then down
On the seasaw
I really do this for my Grammy gram

Shouts to Memaw
Knew you back before I had thoughts
Yeah We thought

We would have forever all the time
I thought that we bought

Life as a child funny, thought that was the be all

She saw

The path god had for me that's coming down the line
Regretting all the times she rang me up
And I decline

These Regrets are Itemized

The things i had to sit with the mistakes are on my mind
I bartered and I begged hoping God would see me crying

Simply Begging for a sign

Up late, escape, Demons in my eyes
I was tryna talk to him
Promise him I'm trying
I was out on missions
At the time I was assigned

To be the guy I used to be
I'm Grateful I survived

Granny on my mind
I'm sorry I neglected you
I say that all the time
The moments when you needed me
I couldn't analyze
All the Height's we climbed
Man I should of felt obliged

Changing on my actions
The college I applied
Fed when I was hungry
To me you were assigned

Blessing in my life
Girl, you always would provide
As I got bigger somehow
You shrink inside my mind

I hate that I rejected you
I loved you as you was
Chasing all the other shit
That shit that gave me buzz

You loved me, you loved me
And I know it's just because

I loved you, but I hated all your flaws
Letting people fuck with me
Chasing that applause
Think back how I treated you
It always makes me pause

Never wanna be that way again
My apologies

I can never get it back to what it was

Missing you, doesn't even cover what I wanna say
You're the short pain when I breathe in my airways
You're the missing time I exclude on my resume
You're the face I really wanna see in the doorway

Didn't give in the hearsay
The one I leaned on during holidays
Now life got me going one way
Having you gone got me down everyday

Now I hideaway
Thinking fonder thoughts about the other day
Days spent thinking on what you would say
Grams I love you dearly heres to you spiritual bouquet

I wish I could
Call on the phone

Call on the phone

Prayer
Blessings
Love

Yeah