Off The Deep End

Late night I lost count of all my drinks
All these expectations I've been trying to meet
So much pressure growing up I didn't need
Wondering if this is where I'm supposed to be
Another weekend over thinking
All these critics want to throw me off the deep end
I could really care less who I'm pleasing
I just want to chase dreams l believed in
But I don't want to walk around living wasted
I just want to wake up say I made it
Everyday grow hard to keep my patience
All I got is myself when the day ends

If you wonder what I did to ease the pain
I bought Bacardi and I mixed with lemonade
I'm optimistic that tomorrow I'm going to change
Tell the critics get the fuck up out my face

Counseling to open up more, trying but I can't
My ex said that I work too hard, but she don't understand
I grew up with no father figure, forced to be a man
No time for explanations I've accepted who I am
So watch me hold it all in, won't notice till it builds up
Pouring alcohol until it's flooded in my system
Trouble with these rules
Man I don't need no therapist
This instrumentals only one that I've been talking to

Late night I lost count of all my drinks
All these expectations I've been trying to meet
So much pressure growing up I didn't need
Wondering if this is where I'm supposed to be
Another weekend over thinking
All these critics want to throw me off the deep end
I could really care less who I'm pleasing
I just want to chase dreams l believed in
But I don't want to walk around living wasted
I just want to wake up say I made it
Everyday grow hard to keep my patience
All I got is myself when the day ends

If you wonder what I did to ease the pain
Picked up the bottle and I poured it down the drain
All I needed was a little bit of faith
Critics talking but this time I walk unfazed

I don't want to drink no more, I can feel me fading slow
Take advantage of me when my mental state is vulnerable
I can't get too comfortable, sharing feeling's personal
Downed too many just one more's
This damage ain't reversible
Pain is temporary, but my legacy's forever
Spilling all my thoughts on songs is how I handle pressure
Took a couple months to sober up I'm feeling good
Watch me accomplish everything I dreamed they said I never would

Late night I lost count of all my drinks
All these expectations I've been trying to meet
So much pressure growing up I didn't need
Wondering if this is where I'm supposed to be
Another weekend over thinking
All these critics want to throw me off the deep end
I could really care less who I'm pleasing
I just want to chase dreams l believed in
But I don't want to walk around living wasted
I just want to wake up say I made it
Everyday grow hard to keep my patience
All I got is myself when the day ends

If you wonder what I did to ease the pain
I take a look at all the progress that I've made
Silenced doubters, I deserve to celebrate
Won't go there, can't go there no no