peanut butter cookie

Really on some bullshit
Aye, aye, haha
Aye, haha, yeah
Aye, aye, aye, yeah
Aye, aye, aye, yeah
Aye, huh, yeah
Aye, huh, yeah
Aye, aye, aye

I ain't even dead, they got my picture in a frame
Feel like I'm Sora the way my head up in the game
Serpents lurking, say they love you but they snake
Niggas on some bullshit I could never tolerate
I just wanna get rich so I can get away
Stay in one place make my mental health decay
Need a bad bitch with thick thighs where I can lay
She like "where your head at?"
I'm like, "somewhere out in space"
Told me be myself and now niggas wish I'd refrain
Started to speak up and now I sound like I'm insane
Fuck it, I love myself, why the fuck would I restrain?
Ball through the bullshit, I'm drawing fouls in the paint
Used to bump Lil Wayne, now I'm faded bumping Bladee
Pull up on my haters with a mask like Slade
Nigga, I'm playing, that rah-rah shit just entertain
Imma be someone you wish you never threw away
Ever since I stopped lying, shit ain't never been the same
I know they waiting for me to switch up for the fame
Can't let it happen, I'd die before becoming fake
I can't afford to fu-fucking take another break
Had to step back and learn what it means to be alive
Making my way as if there ain't no other way
This a marathon and I'm the leader, set the pace
Demon through the night, I could show your ass my fangs
Used to fantasize bout a bullet in the brain
Now I fantasize bout a crib up on a lake
So many people left me, don't even feel the pain
Sometimes, love just ain't enough and that's okay
Sometimes shit happens and there just ain't no one to blame
Making you feel my pain ain't gon take the pain away
Took me a while to realize that's just how it is
Hate it or love it, man, fuck it, I just wanna live

(When you have the strength to take life for yourself)
(That is true wealth)
(I am free of desire)
(So long as I have this scenery to look upon)
(I need nothing more)

I feel like a peanut butter cookie
You don't get play, little brother, no you just a bookie
Niggas put in no work, begging for some goodies
I don't love no one enough to ever trust them fully
I'm my worst critic, my nigga, I'm my own worst bully
But it made me stronger and the proof is in the pudding
They was throwing rocks, clowning when I wasn't looking
Now niggas wondering what's my rate so they can book me
Now niggas wondering why I never come around
Back then, I wondered what it would be like if I drowned
Would they forgive me? At my coffin, would they surround?
Would it be worth it to keep going and thug it out?
Or should I just jump? Or should I just run?
I don't think that'd give me the answers I really want
Swallow my pride and then I pour my heart in a song
Sit in my basement and get to working all night long, aye
Back then, I smoked on some mid and I looked like a midget
Felt like a living misdecision
I should've been a statistic
But now I'm a living reminder anyone can get it
Now I be smoking on loud, smoking on pound
Smoking on surround sound
Prayed I would figure it out, wade through the doubt
I'm up but the jury's still out
I don't like no one, they iffy
These niggas be bitching, I'm sorry, I'm all outta pity
I don't want shawty, she trippin
This bitch wanna be with me, I'm sorry, I'm oh so so picky
My heart hurts, never mind that's my lungs
I been smoking on za, hit me like a fucking punch
Hey, I'm Lan, and the xan got me feeling like a dunce
Can't hear lame niggas when I smoke candy runtz
And these niggas played out, I don't understand the fuss
Better hit my PayPal for a feat, that's a must
Don't got shit to say now, maybe I just ain't enough
What they gonna say about me when I turn to dust?
Will they remember me after I die?
Play my music, keep my spirit alive?
Drop every song in my fucking archive
Just so the whole world can see through my eyes