Oh Father...

Show me the way
Want it to be mine
You stay the same
And You paid the price
I wanna be great, but not for the world
But sometimes I hate for You I live "nice"
Gotta admit I've never been wise
Feel like I'm screwing up everything
I feel like an addict in one of them things
The worst thing about it: I look but don't see, yikes!
What's up? What's the matter?
Between past and future, I'm standing on the latter
It doesn't define me, yeah, that thing I know
My life is no longer seeing girls on the phone
But, wow, I feel quite guilty
Even though I gave You all my filth
Indeed, don't know what's wrong with me
I'm feeling holy, then what is this scene?
Maybe all I'm longing for?
Stressing 'bout having something that I don't?
But I'm always saying I do not need wealth
You see, I'm rapping for my mental health
I'm writing lyrics I'm needing for myself
Maybe the type of lyrics I needed when I was twelve
But now I got older, and I got resentment
I wanna repent and wanna be independent
Wanna show the recipe
That I used to keep the best in me
So, basically, acting relentlessly
Being young, trying to find a place where I belong
But did wrong, now I sing this song
I confess, my mess, I called it "fun"
Now I'm saved by the One who hung
On the cross, 'tis my testimony, and I'm sorry that I took so long
I give You my mouth and I give You my tongue
I give You my heart and every single breath inside my lungs

Oh, Father, I'm sorry for taking control
Oh, Father, I'm sorry for messing my soul
Oh, Father, I'm sorry for digging a hole
I just want You to take it away
Oh, Father, You love me when I am afraid
Oh, Father, You love me when I am astray
Oh, Father, You love me I won't be the same
God come live in my heart

My job is not to be the best in my field
But the best version of me; being real
I acted, lived, talked with pretension
But hear me out, there is no question
If you're really good at whatever you do you do not need to tell 'em
Beautiful things don't ask for attention
I haven't been the same since college
And "special" is not something that has to be won
But something that has to be acknowledged
All the suppressing make you depressing
But it's impressive, He's not aggressive
He's just forgiving from the beginning
He knows you're sinning but He is healing
And I really thought it was my end
But God is here with me, as He was then
I'm sorry for saying "sorry" again and again
I guess I got caught up in the lions' den
I guess I didn't even know how to live as a man
I guess I just wanted a Barbie, though I'm nothing like Ken
But I guess there's nothing that can take away Jesus as my friend
That's why I'm not even ashamed to write all this with my pen
Even now, when I'm rapping all these verses
Even now, I can feel the devil with his curses
I gotta confess, I fell writing this song
But I heard a voice that told me
"Don't you worry, Andi, Dad is always strong"
Everybody keep looking at me
Asking how I can be like this
Looking really happy, and smiley
It was nothing but a mask
But I got a Dad, the real God
Looking back I wanted everything I needed
And Jesus was everything I had
I love You, I love You, I'll never stop repeating
God, You keep me with You, when I'm feeling defeated
And even though I was living too sick
You help me build up this music
A new chapter in my story
The first word of it is "sorry"

Oh, Father, I'm sorry for taking control
Oh, Father, I'm sorry for messing my soul
Oh, Father, I'm sorry for digging a hole
I just want You to take it away
Oh, Father, You love me when I am afraid
Oh, Father, You love me when I am astray
Oh, Father, You love me I won't be the same
God come live in my heart



Credits
Writer(s): Andrés Guerrero Macías
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