Letter To My Pops

Sometimes I think about, what I could've did, how I could've lived
This some shit I can't show my kids, this some shit that I've already been through
Like I wish I could talk to my daddy, god damn I miss you
You the only one that understand me, only one I vent to

And I got some secrets, Pops, I only wanna tell you
When I see I failed myself, it still feel like I failed you
Nobody speak on you, I'ma kill them if they do
And I'll always be myself, that's how you told me to move

If I knew that was my last time seeing you
The old me would've held on to you
And you know I gotta keep a poker face, act like it's cool
When I be in the dark, I feel your presence in the room

And I'll be trying to move like I ain't got nothing to lose
But truth be told I feel like nothing without you
Everything I do, every way I move, this shit came from you
I say I won't forget the way that you taught me all of this shit

And everybody know you had nothing to prove
And we terrorize the streets, that's how we do
You was picking me up when I act out at school
Walked in that office, then I smiled cause it was you

When I tell you that I love you, it was true
Now what I'm supposed to do
Sometimes I think about what I could've did, how I could've lived
This some shit I can't show my kids

This some shit that I've already been through
Like I wish I could talk to my daddy
Goddamn, I miss you
You the only one that understand me

Only one I vent to
And I got some secrets, Pops, I only wanna tell you
When I see I failed myself, I still feel like I failed you
Nobody speak on you

I'ma kill them if they do
And I'll always be myself, that's how you told me to move
If I knew that was my last time seeing you
The old me would've held onto you

And you know I gotta keep a poker face, act like it's cool
When I be in the dark, I feel your presence in the room