Nineteen Years of Sorrow

If there was heaven on this earth I'd give it to you in demand
I'm very flawed as you can see so I could see so never be the man
That you could want but darling hope you understand
That I had nothing and I'm learning living long it was t planned
And now I'm going bar for bar inside the studio the booth
To tell the truth the booth the closest thing to home I ever knew
And as a kid I didn't dream cuz I didn't think that it was true
Had no mother and no father depression been turning blue
Turn the pain into sum money depressed but I'm getting blues
For the days I couldn't get em I hit the mall for sum shoes
I'm doing good and imma star I'm everything they said I'm not
It's kinda crazy how they love when you good and doing hot
When the money start to plummet all of a sudden then they not
I got these thoughts up in my mind and I been cooking up a lot
I Spit the heat up off the dome I just been stirring up the pot
I'll be the shoulder you could cry on if you ever feeling lost

we would be here for sum eons if we talking what I lost
And I could get it back in blood but I cant get back what I lost
not a mortal not a human I am more than just a man
I was dealt some bad cards, tired of working wit this hand
Momma doing black tar while she owes me up a band
I don't feel perfect I feel worthless I hoped that you'd understand
And the Music is a struggle i Hope that it goes to plan
Im only 19 I'm barely legally a man
I need to...