Elevation

I'm not gon' lie
This between me and God it's personal
I'll let you listen, but it's honestly not a verse for you
Every dream I chased I got it, at least I thought it did
Then it turned to nightmares when I chose to relax a bit

My head's in the clouds
They in my sight right now
This ain't hypothetical
I'm on a flight right now
It don't matter where I land
I always keep the Bay with me
And apparently my demons decided to stay with me
Look I ain't really perfect
I know it's hard to believe
What may look easy to them
Makes it harder for me
Every person that I touch
Gets the blessing that they receive
A light even in darkness
I've fought depression for weeks
I've fought depression for months
Probably longer than that, but I'll only admit it once
Hella mad at you, like father what do you want?
My grandma up there telling you to watch over her son
Yea, I really just said her son
Cuz my parents were around but what honestly have they done?
And supposed to give them credit for everything I've become?
Not gon' even lie, they barely know where I'm from
Barely seen the tracks, that I murder on every run
And still I'm walking around just happy to be a son
Happy to be alive, happy to see the sun
Knowing when it sets, my heart's weighing a ton
Cuz you gave me responsibilities
That kinda be killin me
Mastering my strength while processing humility
Being the bigger person, while others try to belittle me
Then I laugh it off for real and be like silly me

Supposed to steer the ship
Supposed to guide the lost
What happens when I slip?
I never figured the cost
All I know is... Every moment has been pricy
Just a rough jagged edge, while others looking for wifey
Never know what's next, but the altar don't seem to like me
But I still pray for guidance those questions are put beside me
Everything I stand for, helps me to never fall
That could been a text, they really bothered to call
Never half stepping, I always give it my all
You tell me calm down, I listen but I'm appalled
Kinda frustrated, cuz every moment I make it
You set up another race, do I really wanna be favorite?
Do I wanna be the one with these problems that gotta face em
Let others play hero, & find a way I can thank 'em
Everytime I check a box on being a better man
You pull me to the side, and say you're switching the plan
I try to be patient, like Father I understand
But I never really get it, I'm just honoring your commands

As I continue to grow, vibin just ain't the same
Still go to the park, but sliding just ain't the same
Never lose the drive, but riding just ain't the same
A child of destiny, surviving is just the game
Feel like Tony Hawk, just grinding to get a name
And to make sure I never get wet during the rain
A roof over my head's not promised
Simple and plain
I just want you to look down, smile not be ashamed



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