Song of Identity

Well, I don't know who the fuck I am
And I can't seem to figure it out
And I shout, no one's there
I am waiting in the night underneath a full moon
A pull soon in the tides, a monsoon and it's June
I breathe in the air and I lose my place
(Over here)
I don't know where I am, coast is clear to get out of here
Serene look on my face as I stand by the lakes
Take a pause on my fate and just wait
I feel like I'm wild and chasing my prey
But instead of my prey, wish it wasn't this way
I pray, but I am chasing me from yesterday
I'm okay, yes I'm fine, but at the drop of a dime
I could be a new person, I could change up the rhyme
Take all time in my hands and blow it into sand
Well, I don't know who the fuck I am

Wish I did but I'm losing all touch with reality
I'm lifting of grounding, blasting into thoughts of mortality
I wonder, I listen, I think
About how to try to fit all my feelings in ink
Am I ever authentic and ever enough?
All my selves, they're called entities
Severed and never together
My soul is forever, for centuries
Tough because my soul is split like a horcrux
I'm done struggling for air
But does anyone care?
I'm sure of myself when I'm 'round all my friends
Personality differs, on the group, it depends
I'm a tough bodybuilder to some of my bros
I'm a sweet little nerd, too, to some of them, though
I'm a drama queen, mentor, astrologist, damn
I'm a mess, I'm confused, I am having a crisis

And I don't know who the fuck I am
And I can't seem to figure it out
And I shout, no one's there
I am waiting in the night underneath a full moon
A pull soon in the tides, a monsoon and it's June
I breathe in the air and I lose my place
(Over here)
I don't know where I am, coast is clear to get out of here
Serene look on my face as I stand by the lakes
Take a pause on my fate and just wait
I feel like I'm wild and chasing my prey
But instead of my prey, wish it wasn't this way
I pray, but I am chasing me from yesterday
I'm okay, yes I'm fine, but at the drop of a dime
I could be a new person, I could change up the rhyme
Take all time in my hands and blow it into sand
Well, I don't know who the fuck I am

And if I did, I would make something of myself
Not sitting here on my twentieth birthday all alone
The stars alone I call my home
Dishonorable, my faltered tone
I pick myself off the ground and I am lifted
As a shard of colored glass against the moon
If I could end it soon, I would, this life is shifted
Towards those who are wealthy and selfish, ungifted
I don't want to sound pretentious
Quite the opposite, actually, I think I'm a menace
I might break some fences and benches and such
I'm senseless to tension, my friendship's made up
How could I truly be a friend to you
If the side you see of me isn't even true?
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Juxtaposed to all of the hoes who do

Well, i don't know who the fuck I am
And I can't seem to figure it out
And I shout, no one's there
I am waiting in the night underneath a full moon
A pull soon in the tides and it's motherfucking --
-- breathe in the air and I lose my place
(Over here)
I don't know where I am, coast is clear to get out of here
Serene look on my face as I stand by the lakes
Take a pause on my fate and just wait
I feel like I'm wild and chasing my prey
But instead of my prey, wish it wasn't this way
I pray, but I am chasing me from yesterday
I'm okay, yes I'm fine, but at the drop of a dime
I could be a new person, I could change up the rhyme
Take all time in my hands and blow it into sand
Well, I don't know who the fuck I am

But I swear, when I do, I'll get out of this place
I'll go out into space
Nobody's chasing me, not responsible
No "Two days too late to eight goose chases
Who laid whose egg in bruised state"
To produce pain, that's the point of this shit
It's funny how deep I can dig this hole
Until I can't get up
I'm appointed to sit inside of it
Until someone pulls me up
No, that'll never happen
I'm different than everybody
And I'm also different to myself
I wish I could be just one guy and not cry
Whenever I hear the question "who am I?"
Wish I didn't get whiplash just being myself
Wish I could actually try to be myself
But my soul slips in between several dimensions
I'm stuck at a crossroads with no sense of direction

Well, I don't know who the fuck I am
And I can't seem to figure it out
(And I shout!)
No one's there
I am waiting in the night underneath a full moon
A pull soon in the tides and it's motherfucking
(June, oh)
I breathe in the air and I lose my place
(Over here)
I don't know where I am
(Coast is clear)
To get out of here
Serene look on my face as I stand by the lakes
Take a pause on my fate and just
(Wait)
I feel like I'm wild and chasing my prey
But Instead of my prey, wish it wasn't this way
But I pray, I'm chasing me from yesterday
(Yesterday, 'kay)
I'm okay, yes I'm fine, but at the drop of a dime
(I could be a new person, oh)
I could change up the rhyme
Take all time in my hands and blow it into sand, well
(I don't know who the fuck I am)

The sun's shining brightly now
Well, if I'm being completely honest
I've been struggling with who I am, and how I'm perceived
I think I may need to try to find that out
Before I try to help everybody else



Credits
Writer(s): Rainer Ochs Pasca
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