Late Summer Pain

I was just thinking to
How is changed my life
The day You have suddenly knocked
At the gates of my sicked mind
You have dragged me
In a black deep endless void
As I tried to resurface
You pushed me even further down

And in the meanwhile
The heat was growing rapidly
The end of this nightmare never arrived
Everything became wrong

And then I closed my eyes
Thinkin' about my happy moments

But the long dark hand
Always came to show me
The true sad present
Of empty days!
Without a reason
Without a warning

Now I'm a leaf
Fluctuating in the autumn of the life
I think silently I will go mad
Oh tell me
What I've made to deserve this?
Oh tell me
What I've made to deserve this?

Oh You don't know
What were the projects of my life
After all You are a ghost in my mind
After all You are a traveller in my head
But You know You are
The evil I have inside

Every night that I fell asleep
It was like falling into the void
I was paralized in my bed
As my life day after day

And every morning
It was like an illusory death
Facing the bright sun blinding me
And illuminating happy people

Oh You don't know
What were the projects for my life
After all You are a ghost in my mind
After all You are a traveller in my head
But I know You are
The evil I have inside

Just keep me alive
Until the time I will have found a girl
It doesn't matter
If You don't listen
The voice of my angry soul
You oppress me the chest
Just because I'm not an optimist
You don't really want to leave this tired body
So I have to fight alone

And then I closed my eyes
Thinkin' about my happy moments

Oh You don't know
What were the projects for my life
After all You are a ghost in my mind
After all You are a traveller in my head
But I know You are
The evil I have inside

Still got pain