Trying Not 2 Die (Guitar Song)

16, It was the loudest nothing
I've ever felt
I can still taste the metal
Hear the click track in my skull

50-50
Guess I'll cut the other
Arm when I get back
Yes I've tried thinking what it's like
To hear a single hand clap

Chris said he "grieves by dying every night"
For the last 3 years
That's how I been living my life

All I do is wake (wake up) up feeling like I wanna die (I wanna die)
Live, regret it, get real high (get real high)
And for a moment I'm happy to be alive
(Sun comes up)
Then I go to bed
Trying not to die (Trying not to die)

I need a god damn job
But I can't live on
Turning nickels into dimes
I'm so tired of selling lies

I go for a drive
I take a bat turn
Down Feral Parkway
Baby brains
But I'm your girl, ain't I your girl?

Did I cut my hair last night?
Or was that just a dream
I'm getting impatient
Adoring the distance between (us)

Well I wrote you a guitar song
It's not very good and
It's probably too long
I'm just trying to get the crumbs out
I got too much shit to think about

What's the point of your queerness
If your just gonna uphold
The same old norms
Trying to spot gender by a look

Paul said "the ones who love us least
Are the ones we'll die to please"
And I wanna break that chain so badly
I could scream

All I do is wake (wake up) up feeling like I wanna die (I wanna die)
Live, regret it, get real high (get real high)
And for a moment I'm happy to be alive
(Sun comes up)
Then I go to bed
Trying not to die (Trying not to die)

God didn't turn me
Into a flower
So I killed them
And I did it myself

Sinead said " to say what you feel
Is to lay your own grave"
And I've got, a nice spot
On this hill to die on

Every time I come
I just wanna hear a great song
A soaring melody
To break my brain completely
(cause I can't feel the days)

Now I'm stoned sleepy smiling
Staring at the star-spangled suckers
I get it and I don't get it
Two things can be true at once

All I do is wake (wake up) up feeling like I wanna die (I wanna die)
Live, regret it, get real high (get real high)
And for a moment I'm happy to be alive
(Sun comes up)
Then I go to bed
Trying not to die (trying not to die)

Birds continue chirping
Call me if you don't need anything
Show me your shitty moon pics
It's okay some things are far away
You don't have to heal in a day

You don't have to heal in a day