Time To

See, doesn't it feel better to go back and reflect

It's just hurting more, cause I have no time
You know, like, I got no time
I got no time

I got no time to look back
I got no time to relax
I got no time to wonder if it could be better with ex
I got no time to worry about what could happen next

I got no time to reflect
Don't know why I'm sitting with you
How much time we got left
Got me thinking bout the times when times was in the subject

So much time ahead
Emotions got out that I suppressed
But time is all that we get
So why I'm wasting all this time making this an event

It's been countless times I came back from where sanity's left
Too many times I regret using time like this
When I gotta use this time to bring my soul to my chest
When I gotta get up and spend the time on life's rent

The rest of time that I get
Whatever time I have left, yeah
You see
You see

Derek roll another one
I'm just fucking joking
I ain't smoking none

Know they all watching my steps from the sun
So I gotta make it happen for the ones
Moms want the Rover with the range
Working so my kids won't grow up the same

As I did put that on the dead homies grave
It's time to
I ain't got much time
I don't know what's my exit

To be frank I taught myself sometimes to go try and end it
How could I be so selfish
This is a gift that I'm living
Too many people lost their chances to live with us in the present

Thought my cats had nine lives but ain't come back after one
25 he ain't make it to 18
What the fuck
One of my closest

On this day he told me don't follow him
It's like he knew exactly to him what was gonna happen
Met him when I was about 10
Told me his name was Dre

My mom ain't like him cause he had tattoos on his face
Wife beater on, cornrows
CJ from GTA
Thought he would cross me like Ryder but always kept it straight

We used to be at 14th and Mass to everyday
Taught me spin moves and talked how he gon' make NBA
Started becoming known around the feet he turned to his name
He had the burners off the blocks and was the top of his grade

Treated me like lil bro
Even when his space was crowded
Junior year scouts were at his high school games to check it out
Got a couple offers

Knew his whole family proud
Only a little time left to get him all at the house
One day we hit the corner store to grab some five dollar plates
We met some of his boys there and they always stayed out late

Said he was gon' leave with them
And I told him that I'd wait
He said nah just go back and head to yo mama's place
So I ain't pay no mind

I took off riding my bike
Went to a shorty crib for a bit then went back to mine
When I parked I get a call that there's a fight right off ninth
Shots went off

Two was gone
Find out he was there last night
Yeah he was dead last night
Yeah it's too young

It's too young
You see what I'm saying
We don't got much time
We don't know

And Jacob rolled another one
I'm just fucking joking
I ain't smoking none
Know they all watching my steps from the sun

So I gotta make it happen for the ones
Moms want the rover with the range
Working so my kids won't grow up the same
As I did put that on the dead homies grave

It's time to
First thing in the morning
To the job I just stepped in
Put all my bags down

Clocking ask my people what's happening
Normal day
Pumping up so we can make all our bread and the cheese

With the sauce that we ride
When time for selling

Ask my boy Adam
Yo what you want for breakfast
He said he wasn't hungry

Asked if I had an excedrin
He was hurting inside
But I ain't pay much attention
He was always ready to go

But this day it felt different
Leave the room
Turn around
Look like his body was stressing

His head was down
Arms was crossed
Fell asleep on his desk
Then he goes to get up

And starts gripping his chest
The strength he had once before
Starts to shrink less and less
He's on the floor

Ambulance come around the corner to lift him
I stood in panic
Cause last time I see my boy on a stretcher
He ain't come back

But I thought that this time it was better
Thought about
He said we go to Portugal and Budapest
So I know he ain't leaving soon

We taking flights connected
I see him Wednesday
Like nothing ever happened
But he wasn't there

So I'm asking people what happened
He's on the bed and hasn't woke up since that accident
But he gon' be alright
Nobody answer my question

Went in the car and start crying
Thinking I already lying
He lost relations with God
Maybe this was his lesson

The day later
Still not there
I'm praying for him to come back
But the Lord had a battle with Adam

I'm guessing
Bring his faith back
Maybe he would come back a reverend
Or down the hole

He would send him a by sight
He was helping
Knew it ended
Because come Monday
They put his body to rest

See what I'm saying
He was too young
I ain't got no time

I got no time
I got no time to look back
I got no time to relax
I got no time to wonder if it could be better with ex

I got no time to worry about what could happen next
I got no time to reflect
Don't know why I'm sitting with you
How much time we got left

Got me thinking bout the times when times wasn't a subject
So much time in here
Emotions got out that I suppressed
But time is all that we get

So why I'm wasting all this time making this an event
It's been countless times I came back from where sanity's left
Too many times I regret using time like this
When I gotta use this time to bring my soul to my chest

When I gotta get up and spend the time on life's rent
The rest of the time that I get
Whatever time I have left
Whatever time I have left

I see where you're coming from
I understand it now
But it's going back to comparing

Yo, shut up, yo

You don't know what I've been through
You don't know what I'm talking about
If it happened to them, it can happen to anyone
So stop
You can't help me
It's done

You can't keep comparing your life to someone else's
It's not healthy
You have to take it easy on yourself

You don't get it
I just gotta get my soul back
Maybe I have to start looking at other women
And just find a new one that way
I'm out, bro
I'm done

You have to make peace with the voices in your head

Will he ever learn