Residual Pain

I feel original
Keep on walking forward til we get right back to where we are
Feelings rocking steady, yeah i'm ready, please don't disregard
Just in time for pacin' now I'm racin' get right up on guard

Let's keep it in the past
I'd rather finish last
Than see all of the things I'd have done wrong if I had started fast

God help me win this race
So sick look at my face
Keeping one eye open, just to make sure that I stay in place

Reachin' inside my heart
So cold you'll get a shock

Don't make me feel this way
I feel it anyway

Hotter than the sun and stars
Look so good in my arms

Wishful thinking gets me through the pain
That I know every day
The pain is resisting now
Tell me how we're living now
Man those minutes feel like hours
The thought of it all crashing down

The pain is residual
The pain is not original

Thinking back to
When I first met you
Man I thought you the best, that
You could give me a rest from
The games that life keeps
Throwing, a test, man I'm
Lacing you like strings on a shoe
That, I detest (mm)
Please, don't break my heart
Why do we have to start
Again and again, so much that I need a friend, who

Hears me, and my pain
I'm locked, asylum gates

Taking my residuals I think they should go burn in flames
Reachin' inside my heart
So cold you'll get a shock

Don't make me feel this way
I feel it anyway

Hotter than the sun and stars
Look so good in my arms

Wishful thinking gets me through the pain
That I know every day
The pain is resisting now
Tell me how we're living now
Man those minutes feel like hours
The thought of it all crashing down
The pain is residual
The pain is not original
The pain is resisting now
Tell me how we're living now
Man those minutes feel like hours
The thought of it all crashing down
The pain is residual
The pain is not original
The pain is resisting now
Tell me how we're living now
Man those minutes feel like hours
The thought of it all crashing down
The pain is residual
The pain is not original
Last year, was hell
I was going through a lot of personal turmoil
Faced with enormous stress, I suffered an anxiety attack
On some days, I could do no work
On other days, I just wanted to lay in my bed, and cry
I have a loving supportive family
And incredibly loyal friends
Yet I could not entertain the idea
Of speaking to anyone, about my feelings of pain
I felt suffocated
Being honest, about how we feel
Does not make us weak
It makes us human
So the next time
You hear mental
Do not just think of the madman
Think of me