My Addictions

Here we are again
Survived another day
But when the sun goes down
I fee like I've died again

I wanna try
I wanna fight
I wanna be your best friend
I wanna die
I wouldn't mind
I'm always feeling depressed and
Losing my mind
From the inside
Yeah it's a curse and a blessing
I wanna fly
Tried suicide
Take me away from the mess then
Spend all my nights in my room
Like songs that I just cry to
I'm anxious all the time too
Can't describe the pain inside you
I'm just lost
In my head
I self-medicate instead
Always tired
I'm a mess
All these nightmares haven't slept

I fight with my addictions
I'm face down in the kitchen
I'll find a way to fix it
I try to close the distance
I'm talking to my visions
Find help but no one listens
Cut ties with bad decisions
One day I'll make a difference

I fight with my addictions
I'm face down in the kitchen
I'll find a way to fix it
I try to close the distance
I'm talking to my visions
Find help but no one listens
Cut ties with bad decisions
One day I'll make a difference

Take me away to a place in the sky
I'll finally face what I've made of my life
All of the pain that I'm feeling
In silence I'm dealing with
Lying here sick in my mind
Feel my grinding jaw
I can't do this anymore
I'm confused with life's illusions
Blurry lines with my delusions
Why am I always so high?
Or feeling so low?
I think I died
But how would I know
All of my demons are pulling me closer
Stuck with the feeling I've never been colder
Sit with the rain and wait till you're older
Numb all the pain and drink till it's over

I fight with my addictions
I'm face down in the kitchen
I'll find a way to fix it
I try to close the distance
I'm talking to my visions
Find help but no one listens
Cut ties with bad decisions
One day I'll make a difference

I fight with my addictions
I'm face down in the kitchen
I'll find a way to fix it
I try to close the distance
I'm talking to my visions
Find help but no one listens
Cut ties with bad decisions
One day I'll make a difference

I'm alive and I'll pretend
That I can feel myself again
Did I survive?
My love is dead
Is this the end with darkness when
It rains again



Credits
Writer(s): Andrew Darby
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